Burned Out

Dear ppls, sorry that i was so busy that i could hardly update on my blog.. like that also better mehz, u all don't have to come and check out my blog now and then.. hahaha.. really thx those that have been reading up my blog consistently.. One of them is my dear sis, chow tee who pestering me to update my blog.. Oops! anyway, really appreciate it.. ;)

last week was Reali reali a tiring week for mi.. i was so busy and pack up that i could hardly have time to sleep and rest...
last wed, i had two tests, one after another.. was busy mugging the nite b4 and the very morining.. Praise the Lord that i was able to answer most of the qns with ease, believe that i will do well for both of them.. although it was last minutes work but God's grace was upon me.. Thank you Father..

my test ended around 4.30pm, after that went down for powerhouse.. the presence of God was strong and great.. upon my entry, i could felt the prsence of God and began my talk with God.. a wonderful time with Him.. later on, went to KFC to fellowship with feli, net, ken, jin cai, edwin and shun qun.. around 7pm den we made our way to church for our BS.. hahhaha.. really learnt alot of things from laying foundation, blessed mi alot.. believe that it will be useful and helpful in my later on walk with God.. hehe..

by the time i reach home, i was very tired and weary le.. however the very next morning, i still have a project to hand it.. thus i crucified my flesh and stay up till 3am in the morning, rushing my project.. have u ever try b4 doing until half way, fall asleep, den wake up and continue to do?? that was wat i went through that nite lohz.. somemore i fall asleep more than once lohz.. i even sleep until i "BANG" my head onto my com table b4 i finally surrender this battle.. the sad thing is that i only half way through by den.. ARRgh!!

Since my project is not yet complete.. so the thur morning, i had to resort to skipping lesson to finish rushing my project.. this is not a good example to learn from, just to remind u all NOT to make the same mistake as wat i did can liao.. ahhaa.. finally, by God's grace, i managed to completed it b4 the lesson start.. Btw, by den my lesson has 20 students and plus "One Panda".. :(

when i though that everything is finally over and i wish to settle down to catch up my bible reading schedule.. my group mates call up and say that we need to amend on tmlo project and have to stay back in school.. i was close to breakdown sia, test after test den project after project.. where would i have the time to read up my bible, not forgetting that 3 more days later will be my maths paper.. with a heavy and burden heart, i went over quickly, hopping to get it done asap.. -__-

Everythin just came piling upon me.. although i didn't had a great weekday but my weekend was very very mEanIngFul.. the sat combine Cg was awesome.. although my heart was full of burden and stress but in the presence and midst of God's children.. my problems just seem to fade away by itself.. at the end of the cg meeting, all that i could felt was God's love for mi.. Praise the lord!

After our cg meeting, we went out to have our verry first W210 outing at jurong point.. first we went to pizza hut to have our dinner, although the food abit expensive but it really nice.. had quite a great time fellowshiping with my members.. A wonderful time with them.. Den we went to catch a show by the name of "House of fury", the show was overall quite nice lah.. mixture of marital art, crappy and abit touching lah..

To be frank, for the past week i was burned out and further stress out bout some of the CG stuffs.. sometime i just felt that y there r so much things left undone or not orderly done.. Really bless to have feli and lynn to be by my side to share the burden.. however there still a limit to how much a sis could have help..

I really really wish to do my best and give my all for my cg.. just that sometime my capacity really stretch to the fullest and i was so so burned out.. when i turn for help, i could see no one by my side.. when lynn is tired out, feli is there.. when feli is tired out, lynn is there.. when i am tired out, who is there for mi?

i have been praying to God to rise someone up to help mi.. a DISCIPLE who has a willing heart and willing to ur will.. one who willing to give his/her all in exchange of u.. when will that willing person apporach mi and say that he/she willing to help mi?

Sis michelle's preaching was like as though it was mean for mi alone.. a word from God that so true and strong that bring mi once again back to Him.. i was so so lost and discourage, tired out and close to giving up.. I can heard Him saying tat: ray, come back to mi.. i willing to forgive u from all ur sin.. when michelle preach on the part of

> we should not condemn ourself.
> God will show us the way when we r in troubles.
> Circumstances r there to mould and shape u.
> God could not move in out limited mindset.

My tears started flowing down.. i have sin against God of thinking of leaving His presence.. Now there He is, speaking a word to mi.. i could felt tat God embrace mi with His strong and mighty arm.. as though a Father who pick up His child that fall and give him a hug to stop him from crying.. when we r hurt and down, we should not go away from God but rather draw closer to Him.. i learnt that He is the only one who can heal and mend ur wounds.. running away from Him is not able to solve ur problems, u just simply lieing urself that all.. Thx Lord!