Something bout mi
y am i sick again?
Dreams and Visions
Just wish to share with my dear blog reader somethings bout mi.. mani ppls would be wondering y i chosen this blog out of the thousands tat available.. i didn't chose it just out of fun or look interesting.. i just felt tat the blog would reflect part of mi..
first of all, i realli love angels.. there are so cute and sweet.. always dwelling high above or mabe just right beside ur side watching and protecting u.. making sure that u r never alone and doesn't come to any harm.. rejoice with u whenever u r happi and comforting u whenever u felt sorrow.. time & time, u may wonder y u r all alone and there no one to be by ur side.. feeling lost and realli wish to give up on all hope.. HEYs, ur angel is actualli just beside u.. it just tat u never take notice of him/her.. u r fcousing so much of ur worries and problems tat there is no place in ur heart for His love.. it becos He care for us tat y He had place angels around our life to help and encourage us..
be of good cheer whenever u r feeling down and sad.. God had never left ur side.. The Holy Spirit is there to guard ur heart(emotion), angels to meet ur needs(physical) and we can trust in Him at all times.. do not be lure away by the devils tempation, guard ur heart and mind at all time..
back to my topic.. i just wish tat i can be like an angel as well.. watching and protecting my loves one.. making sure tat they will not come to any harm and praying tat joys and happiness always embracing them.. making a difference in the ppls around mi.. what i love bout angels is tat they often do things in secret.. they tend to do this and that but without anyone noticing it expect God alone..
tat y i love to do things without mani ppls noe bout it.. wat the point of letting the whole world noe bout the small little stuff tat u have do.. so long u noe tat what u did had make a difference in the other party, u should be glad bout tat.. i had to admit tat there r time when i chose to isolate myself as well.. hoping tat nobody had notice of mi.. however whenever i do so, it just mean tat i am facing problems or difficulties myself.. no longer able to be an angel toward the ppls around mi.. hiding myself in my secret place where onli God noe..
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
sometime i realli curious bout my body immune system.. nowsaday, i tend to fall sick easily and took mi quite some time to fully recover.. seriously i have no ideas wat wrong with my body??
was realli feeling veri terrible on monday nite and tue morning.. was so sick tat i could barely open my open.. i just felt so weary and tired.. my whole was so weak and and feeling cold now and den.. it was realli a terrible time 4 mi to endure through.. thx God 4 His strength to see mi through..
wish to share with u all wat God had help mi.. on tue morning, we were to fast from 6am to 6pm.. although i feeling veri sick but my hunger of seeing my friends getting saved into God's kingdom realli give mi the strength to endure through.. i realli want God to make a difference in my friends' life..
when i woke up around 10am, my mum had actualli brough mi brunch (breakfast cum lunch) i was like -_-"" ( i am suppose to fast lohz)
she keep asking mi to eat from 10am to 2pm.. den i was like keep on rejecting it and praise the Lord 4 blessing mi with strength and wisdom to overcome this test.. just as the bible say, God never give us trails tat too much 4 ours to bears..
my illness didn't seem to get any better when i reach school 4 my lesson.. most probably becos of the air-con ba.. i was feeling veri cold and tired throughout my class.. i have to admit tat i didn't realli pay attention to wat the lecture was teaching.. my eyes lid was so heavy and fall asleep 4 a few time.. as the prayer meeting time drew near, i was realli struggling whether should i go or not.. cosz my mum had instruced mi to come home eariler to rest.. however, i decided to trust in the Lord and walk by faith despite of my body limation..
the prayer meeting was awesome, mani youth attended the meeting.. young as we may be but we have a heart seeking after God's heart.. wanting to make a difference in our generation.. praise the Lord, i began to felt refresh and throughout the prayer meeting i didn't cough at all.. earlier today, i couldn't even talk much.. but throghout the prayer meeting i just keep on praying and feeling much much better.. indeed, seek first the kingdom of God and everything shall be added upon u.. God never fail to answer our prayer.. i believe tat this coming youth edition will bring our cg to a whole new level.. i going to make a difference too..
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Sunday, August 28, 2005
woah.. today was realli blessed by Rev Ulf Ekman.. initally, i was veri veri tired and feeling abit sick.. however still make the effort to go 4 extra svc by attending svc 5 as well.. it was realli a life-changing moments 4 mi.. everything was simply awesome, Rev Ulf Ekman never fail to make a different whenever he came to our church.. His words and impartion was a great great blessing to mani..
When svc 5 was about to end, Rev Ulf Ekman say that he going to pray 4 the poly students, i was elated upon hearing that.. i was full of excitment and came b4 the altar with a heart of expectancy.. deep down in my heart, was hoping tat God could use mi and rise mi up to a whole new level.. praying deeply 4 revivial in my cg and campus, seeing my friends and family members getting saved.. when i was still in e queue waiting 4 my turn, can realli experience the strong presence of God.. my whole body was trembling non-stop and i realli mean non-stop lohz, i never experience this b4.. just feel tat my Holy spirit had been stir up and dashing up and down in my body..
once again, when Rev Ulf Ekman lays hand on mi, i saw the dreams that God had planted in mi.. Dreams and visions that wat He had wanted mi to do 4 Him.. true indeed, fears always crip up whenever i wanted to do somethings 4 God.. however i still put my trust in God and take a step of faith, believeing tat He will guide and lead mi.. God has been showing mi visions whenever i seek after Him, telling mi tat now is the time for mi to make a difference.. and yes, i will answer the call and ley ur will be done upon mi..
realli feel His tangible presence throughout svc.. Praise the Lord 4 renewing mi, my physical tiredness just simply vanish when i continue to worship Him.. not only so, the Holy Spirit bring forth verses to encourage mi.. there are times when we give our best but the outcome is not wat we have expected of.. we tend to felt discourage and disappointed.. however God never fails to comfort us and through these tests and trails, God is actualli moulding and preparing us.. tears just flow down as i continue to worship in His presence.. God, let mi lean opon ur understanding and not mine.. for ur ways is always higher than mine..
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Ray
2@ years old (23th of May)
Singapore polytechnic
Child of God
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