Sacrifices

This thought had been in my mind 4 quite some time.. was realli bless by wat Pst Phil Pringle share on sunday svc.. In our different stages of life, we tend to have different desires or dreams.. sometime tat desire or dream matter to you so much tat u willing to give all ur attention and time to it.. even to the extend of neglecting God and "throwing" Him aside.. oOps!

Even for myself, there r time tat i realli don't wish to let go of tat desire or dream.. keep holding on to it and refusing to let it go despite e Lord had spoken to mi.. hoping tat through my own's strength, i will be able to achieve it.. as expected, i fail and hurt badly.. come to think of it, i was such a fool, doing all those silly stuff.. wat strength do i have? aren't all my strength from the Heavenly Father who renew mi every morning.. isn't God's way higher than ours. isn't God's foolishness is still wiser than the wiser man on earth? y hide and run away from Him when all of us noe tat He is truly the almighty one..

God is a good God.. He never force His thinking on mi.. He could have stop mi at tat point of time but instead giving mi a choice to make my own decision.. although i make the wrong choice but He is merciful enough to shower His abundance grace upon mi.. guiding mi back to the right path tat He has always intended mi to be.. Pressed as we maybe but we r not down, crashed as we maybe but we r not destroy.. God is a merciful God..

many time we would put something else above God.. be it our friends, family, dream or desire.. it is so easy to tell God tat u love Him and willing to do anything for Him.. however if God were to tell u right now to give up ur most precious to Him.. the very most important things tat in ur heart right now.. R u willing to let it go? it is easy to just say it out however not many able to act it out..

Even for myself, i realli struggle of letting go of it.. i was finding reasons and aruging with God tat He don't want tat de.. how bout letting go of this, this and this.. u wouldn't be interested in tat.. However God's word just pierce through my heart like a sword..

"Ray, do u love mi"
"yes,i do"
"Den lift up this upon e altar of sacrifice"

at tat point of time, i realli can't find any other reason to aruge with God.. No matter wat reasons i give, all of them were merely as though excuses.. if i truly love Him and put Him first and only in my heart.. there isn't anythings tat i can't give it to Him.. it really hurt alot to let go of tat.. however if it is 4 e Lord, no matter how big e sacrifice is, everythings is worth it..