Up and Down

Ahhaha, just like to share with all my dear readers that this is my 100 entries.. hehe.. since the first day that i started blogging, i didn't realise that i would write so much craps.. hehe.. thx 4 being so faithful and come to my blog once in a while to check up on mi.. really appreciate that.. listening to all my nonsense and rubbish.. ahhaha..

pardon mi for not able to update 4 such a long period of time.. for the past few weeks, it had really being a great challenge to mi lah.. many events and stuff had happened, a great mixture of feelings..

first of all, basically i was exhausted and stressed out by my exams and final year project.. all i could say is that fyp really take up lots of time.. most of my time was spent on doing reports, my sturcture and mani mani other small small stuffs.. really thx Heavenly Father for the strength to keep mi going on..

next, just when i was going to breakdown, friends appeared by my side to encourage and support mi, thx for all the care and concern that u all shower upon my life.. although u may not know it but ur word simply strengthen mi.. thx God 4 placing wonderful ppls around mi to help and support mi.. for God say, two is better than one.. Amen..

at last my final year project come to an end, although onli left with the reports lah.. just when i though that i could relax and enjoy myself, somethings hit mi real hard.. somethings tat i could never imagined or though of.. basically my world just broke down and shatter into pieces.. i was at a total lost and realli have no ideas wat to do, where to go and how to handle it..

my mind was completely blank.. instantly darkness engulf over mi.. bitterness and hatred begun to arise from my heart.. i keep asking why such a thing would happen, just b4 hatred word come forth from my mouth, shannon testimonial came straight into my mind.. A light tat shine right throught the dark sky and darkness was fading off slowly.. my anger and hatred was weep off as i recall wat she shared..
"we do not praise God for wat had happen but we praise Him despite of the tough situation we are in. the time tat u least feel like praising Him, should be the time tat u praise Him the most."

i begin to regain my conscious and decided to seek and honour God first.. during svc praise and worship, i could no longer hold back my sorrow.. tears were flowing out non-stop and there was no way i could hold back to it.. this is the first time tat i cry during praise.. Presence of God was so strong and tangible throughout the whole svc.. God's love was covering all over mi.. healing my broken heart.. Thank you sis shannon for praying 4 mi..

last but not least, i would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to my fellow bros and sisters who supports and encouraged during my darkest period.. if not for the care and concern tat u have sow, i don't think i can be back to my normal self in such a short time.. God is good all the time and all the time God is good.. Amen.. ^0^