A HeArt tAt SeeKing afteR God

Valentine Day aka Friendship Day

2007-02-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

Valentine Day aka Friendship Day

Ahhaha, praise the Lord tat i was bless with night out by my OC.. managed to book out for a few hours, spend some time with my beloved family members.. though it abit lonely and sad to spend ur time with family members on the eve of V'day.. nonetheless, i still enjoy my few hours of rest at home..

Yea, in another 2 weeks time, i going to complete my 1st stage of training, moving on to 2nd phase of training.. Had lots of fun with my bunk mates especially with felix around, looking out for each others.. would like to apologise for not able to keep in touch with most of you due to my intense training.. Hereby hope tat all of you would have a great FRienDshiP celebration.. HaPpY FrIenDsHiP DAy, thank for remembering and keeping me in ur prayer..

Though i may not sms, call or meet you out but assure tat i have never forgotten you since the day we meet.. thank for always hanging around all this while.. love ya all.. Thank You Father for blessing so many wonderful Bros, Sisters and frIends in my life.. ^.^

Thank for your TIME

2007-02-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

Thank for your TIME

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact,Jack moved across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

One day over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days. "Jack, did you hear me?"
Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It has been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said."
Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence' as he put it," Mom told him." I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said."
You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said." He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral," Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away. The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.
"The box is gone," he said.
"What box?" Mom asked.

There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell me was the thing I value most," Jack said. It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it. "Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from work one day,Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. "Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days," the note read. Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. "Mr.Harold Belser" it read. Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside. "Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life." A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes,!

Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time! Harold Belser." "The thing he valued most...was...my time."
Jack held the watch for a few minutes then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days.

"Why?" Janet, his assistant asked."

I need some time to spend with my son," he said. "Oh, by the way, Janet...thanks for your time!" Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely turned your back on the world.

11. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year

2007-01-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year

Ahhaha, all i want to say tat God is good all the time and all the time God is good.. 2006 had been a very memorable year for me.. lots and lots of things happened in this year.. been through lots of tears and joys.. nonetheless every single time, be it good or bad, My Lord is always by my side, never leaving me along..

I wan to thank God 4 His tremendous blessings especially as the year coming to an end.. Received many christmas presents and this is the first time tat i had a chirstmas party.. Praise the Lord tat many came and had lots of fun though i was busy running up and downs.. This chirstmas party was actually suggested by my mom and dad, i couldn't believed it when i first heard it.. however nothing is impossible with my heavenly Father, i believed my parents are slowly changed by Him..

The end of 2006 mean the start of 2007, yea.. there are so many things tat i want to do in 2007.. especially after a long long conversion with my heavenly Father.. I believed i can do all those things tat he had shown to me; all things are possible with my God.. Not forgottening my friends and cg members who had been encouraging me all this while and praying for me.. ur prayer had really been a great blessing to me, it had see me through many trails and tribulations..

Hope tat in the coming 2007, all of us will be able to achieve our new year resolutions.. Soaring higher and further in the Lord.. hope to catch up with those tat i didn't have the chance to do so during the new year.. do continue to stay in touch, if i have the time i would defintely look 4 u.. though we may not meet each other often but u are always remember in my heart.. no matter where you go, or where you are, i hope my prayer will be able to reach you.. ^o^

POP!

2006-12-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

POP!

Ahhaha.. after 3 long months of training, finally had my passing out paprade (pop) on the 5th of Dec.. you could never understand the joy u had when u throw ur jockey hat up into the sky, proudly standing infront of ur family members.. the honour, pride, joy and happiness is simply beyond word description.. I am so HAPPY..

Now start my hoildays from the 6th to 17th, a long break for me to have fun and joy.. there are so many things i wanted to do, one long list.. want to meet up with my friends, spent time with my loved one, fellowship with my cell group, meet up with my buddies, shopping, movies and blur blur blur.. i just simply want to maximise every single minutes i had..

For those who are free, pls kindly call me or drop me a msg so tat we can arrange a tiem to go out together.. for those who miss this entry, need not worry cos i will be calling or smsing you soon.. can't wait to meet up with all my friends, miss all of you.. hehe.. finally i got time to play and do the things tat i long wanted to do.. ahhaha.. time is precious..

Back from field camp

2006-11-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

Back from field camp

It had really been a long time since i last blog out my thoughts and feelings.. army training had really exhaust my body, most of the time when i am out, i would stay at home to rest and recuperate.. thx for those who constantly pop by to check out on me.. by the grace and mercy of the Lord, i am still doing fine in the army.. able to cope with the training, so far so good..

field camp is a total whole new experience, really bring me to a whole new level.. i would say it is a interesting experience but if possible would not wish to go through it too many time.. Praise the Lord tat soon will be my POP, on the 5th of Dec.. anyone interested to come and take a look? ahhaha.. looking forward to the break tat i had.. so tired, zzzZZZZ..

Praise the Lord for Hoildays

2006-10-24T12:42:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord for Hoildays

Ahhaha.. thx God 4 having hoildays.. due to hoildays i am able to have fun and rest from fri night till tue night.. busy going out for the first 2 days and rest for the next 2 days.. actually didn't really rest much, busy playing games and watching tv.. enjoy the time tat i have.. hehe..

like to thx those who make the effort to meet up with mi and give mi ur time.. deeply appreciated it.. ahhaha, have been catching show with my friends.. scoop and death note.. scope is rather boring but some of the joke are super funny provided you understand it lah, abit chim.. while i think death note is a great show.. i like the story line alot, can see tat the author of this manga is a super great thinker.. looking forward to part 2 which coming out on dec..

hmmm, realise tat i change alot ever since i went into army.. i really treasure the little time tat i have in singapore.. i would get easily irriated if i find my time is not fully maximise.. hate to wait or aimless waste my time away.. would rather lie on my cosy bed and rest.. i love my bed, it is so comfortable.. ahhaha, sorry to those who still haven't get the chance to call you or meet up with you.. will try to do so if i have the time.. which is more and more unlikely as my army schedule become more and more pack.. hehe.. hope tat you all are doing fine and may God continue to pour out His abundance blessing over ur life.. love ya.. ^0^

Sorry tat i was MIA for so long

2006-10-15T18:36:00.000+08:00

Sorry tat i was MIA for so long

So sorry tat it been such a long time since i last updated.. had been very busy whenever i came out.. could hardly had much time infront of the computer to think and write my thoughts down.. not mentioning to have time to go out with friends.. whenever i book out i would try to make some plans to meet up with certain group of friends.. however most of the time it would be either our timing clash or i was so tired tat i called it off..

it had been 5 weeks since i enter army.. another 8 more weeks to go, begin to adapt better to the army lifestyle.. however the training schedule also step up and tat mean more training.. praise the Lord 4 seeing me throught whenever i was down.. whenever i want to throw in the white towel, the Lord would strengthen me and lift me up once again.. had sore throat for the past 2 weeks, this week plus cough.. feeling very terrible, keep on coughing and coughing.. nonetheless, i noe my God is a great healer.. there nothing tat can't be done by Him..

once again, i wan to say a big thank you to those who have been praying for me all this while.. greatly appreciated, without ur prayer, ray wouldn't be able to walk till this far.. due to my sore throat so i didn't really call anyone to chat with.. if u think tat i had forgotten u, think again, am i so heartless?? off course not, when i am feeling better will give u all a call soon.. now close to no voice liao.. cya soon.. TC..

First Book Out

2006-09-23T13:21:00.000+08:00

First Book Out

Hehe, Praise the Lord tat after 2 week of army life, i am finally back to singapore to enjoy the colourful world.. the fresh air and ppl, especially my loved one (family).. it wasn't an easy start out, lots of difficulties and trails along the way, thx God 4 always by my side throughout all these times.. strengthing mi through each and every tribultaions, lifting mi out of my pit..

above and beyond, God is a GOOD God.. overall i would say tat army life is still fun, just tat i am not used to it so still trying to adapt to the life over there.. nonetheless, wan to share tat my bunk mate are all very nice and friendly.. took good care of one another excpet a few of them but i believe they will change along the way..

enjoying the short little time i have in singapore.. hehe.. zzZZZZ..

Night jogging

2006-09-06T05:34:00.000+08:00

Night jogging

Yup yup, ur eyes is not playing tricks on you.. i wrote this entries at 5 plus am in the morning.. just came back from my night jogging and supper..

ahhaha, today was my first time went for night jog.. it was so cool and great.. it is so windy to jog at night.. the surrounding is so quite and nice.. seem like the whole world stopped moving while you jog freely around.. the feeling is so wondeful..
great to have a friend to accompany you, pushing you beyond ur limit.. hehe..

we jog from 12.40am to 2.45am.. ahhaha, 2 hours of jogging and walking.. a total new experience.. after tat head over to our usual prata shop.. oops, shouldn't be eating so much supper but don't really care much.. since i am going in, in another 2 days time.. going to spend my last few days to the fullest.. ahhaha.. going to sleep soon, afternoon still meeting my beloved M.R dept for kbox.. ahhaha.. my life is so fun especially when i am bless with wonderful friends.. love ya all..

Resting at home

2006-09-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

Resting at home

It had really been a busy and packed week for me.. from all the entries tat you saw, it was my one whole week of events.. was spending and enjoying every single moment i have.. was really blessed tat my friends is willing to give their time to me as well.. a great time of fellowshipping with one another.. hehe..

today was suppose to meet up with arthur for gym training.. however i slept till 2pm plus.. was super tired and exhausted from my one whole week of events.. both my phsycial and mental was pushed to the max.. decided to took a rest at home today.. spend some quality time with my family members.. hehe..

while at home, felt tat my room need some good cleaning and started throwing all the unwanted rubbish away.. feel great and satisfy when my room look much neater and well present.. hehe.. it look more spacious right now.. i love my bed, it so cosy.. ^-^

My last Svc

2006-09-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

My last Svc

Don't get me wrong, i am not backsliding.. just tat after today, for the next 2 weeks, i wouldn't be able to attend svc and cg.. was greatly bless by the msg tat Pst Kong shared.. it was mind blowing..

had a wonderful time chatting with my members.. hehe.. oh ya, N249 bless me with another book, Faith.. now i have a total of 4 books to read.. currently only at book 1 chap 3.. this is so so challenging.. a really breakthrough for someone who never read or rarely read throughout 20 years of his life..

it is really so challenging but i will try my best.. cos through reading you will be able to experience a whole new level of thinking.. knowledge is the foundtain of wealth.. i wan more wisdom.. hehe.. books, here i come, u shall not stand in my ways..

Later in the night, meet up with a few fellow pos mates and head over to sing yee 's workplace to support her.. the place was not too bad, quite a nice place actually.. just tat the food is quite expensive so can't really go there often.. had a fun time with all of them..

on the train home, was feeling super super tired.. my eye is closing and closing.. it had really been a super packed and wonderful week.. all in my mind right now is my bed and zzZZZ..

I love N249

2006-09-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

I love N249

For those who didn't know, i had just transfer cg to N249.. it had only been around 1 month plus.. the members is so loving, took great care of me.. make me feel welcome and cosy.. just like family members.. today was suppose to celebrate one of the new friend's B'day so the cg timing was bring forward to 2.30 instead of the usual 4pm..

by the time i woke up it was already 1.45pm, was still feeling very tired as i slept at 6am this morning.. after informing jie ying tat i will be late, quickly washup and rush over.. reach at 2.50pm, feeling abit gulity.. after wishing the B'day boy happi B'day, head over to fellowship with my members..

it was only den i realise tat today they are actually giving me a farewell party as well.. one of my dear cg members by the name of ken sim, he preapred a whloe table to food for me.. was really touched and his cultury skill was great.. the fried rice taste super super wonderful..

Just b4 cg start, jie ying and the rest of the cg members prepared 2 songs for me.. one of them are sun lastest album song, "wo yong yuan dao zai" (track 7) and the other are "That's what friends are for".. to be honest, i almost break down to tears, i was so so touched by their love and concern for me.. especially jie ying who have been taking great care of me ever since i join her cg.. their love really reaches into my soul, body, deep into the bones, was greatly touched..

What a packed day

2006-09-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

What a packed day

Early in the morning head down to army market to clear all the stuff tat i need for my NS.. Thx God 4 such a caring mother i have.. been telling her tat i would be going out for the whole of this week, so she bless me with a total of 100 dollars for my army stuff.. after getting all the necessary stuff, i still left with alot.. hehe..

after army market, we head over to national library to borrow books.. can't find the book tat i wan, all of them was borrowed away.. sad sad.. quickly went back home to get some stuff b4 head down to meet up with my ex-members..

today was suppose to celebrate lynn belated B'day and at the same time my farewell party.. we had our dinner at new york new york.. the food was only so so, not super fansatic but i keep wondering.. why everytime the queeue is so long and ppl is willing to wait for an hour to two just to dine in there.. a qn tat really worth pondering over.. oh ya, my ex-leader shannon bless me with a esprite bag.. tat is so cool.. shannon seldom bless ppl so when she bless tat person, it meant she love tat person alot.. ahahhaha.. ooPS.. thx Shannon..

not forgetting tat feli, ct and lynn got me the happiness book, actually i got one for myself but in the end decided to bless it to my friend instead.. so yes, now i got the book as well.. hehe.. God is a good God.. btw, ct thx for ur card frame.. it very nice.. ;)

didn't manage to stay too long with them.. cos still got another appointment with my buddies at 9.30pm.. decided to head down to chomp chomp to have our supper.. it been a long time since all of us is able to meet out.. had a great time of fellowshipping and do alot of stupid stuff.. head over to the serangoon garden park to do phsyical training.. go to the big open space near my hus area to chat and look at stars.. stay up till 5 plus in the morning den everyone take their first bus back home.. was feeling super tired and exhausted..

Fellowship with my buddies

2006-08-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

Fellowship with my buddies

Ahhaha.. after 3 continuous day of outing.. i am herby declared tat i am broke.. been spending far too much for the past 3 days.. must really take some time to start saving up so decided to cancelled all my appointment for the day.. realxing at home and trying to do some things tat need not cost any money.. hehe..

yea, tonight will be having soccer with my buddies.. cool, a great time of sweating and kicking.. time to vent my anger and furstation if i have any.. hehe.. after a whole sweat out, realise tat i still haven't had my dinner.. so we head down for supper at our usual prata outlet.. hehe.. my mum bless mi with 10 bucks for my supper.. ahahhaha.. Thx God 4 the blessing..

Outing with my beloved cls mates

2006-08-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

Outing with my beloved cls mates

Meet up with a few of my cls juniors for dinner.. first of all, we went to pastamania for our dinner.. each of us order a indivual dish and a combo C, garilic bread and drink.. we had so much eating one another food.. we even play Zhong Ji Mi Ma (number game) mixing the garilic with different topping like chilli powder, pepper, salt, cheese and etc.. out of 5 rounds, i got twice.. Lol.. tonight willing be staying inside the toilet.. -_-""

after our dinner, we head over to neo-print.. Yea, so fun posing here and there.. throughout all the poses, i was stealing the lime light.. ahhaha.. i look so cute in the neo-print.. hehe..

finally the showtime for our movie strikes.. we quickly rush over to the cinema.. for those who know ray, how could ray watch a show without pop-corn unless i am not feeling well or broke.. if nt there will surely be a big pack of pop-corn.. we watch too fast too furious - tokoyo drift.. it was so so cool lohz, the car is so nice and stylish.. beyond and above everything, i really tink it a nice show if u all like thrills, actions and full of excitment.. wat a great day i had.. hehe..

Spending time with my classmates

2006-08-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

Spending time with my classmates

Initially was planning of going down to sp and settle some stuff but was so tired and keep lying on my cosy bed, refusing to get out of it.. going to miss my bed, it is so comfortable.. sob sob.. finally by the time i pull myself out it, it was already noon time.. was still feeling tired from yesterday fun, decided to stay at home first b4 heading down for my second plan..

went over to clementi to meet up with my close buddy, alyosius and wai kian.. the two of them was my closer buddy aka my classmates.. usually the 3 of us would hang out together and go arn exploring singapore.. however as the two of them are busy with their personally stuff so we could hardly meet out.. after our swimming, we head down to marina square for a great meal.. we went dinning at it's dim sium.. cool man, the food was nice, happi eating and eating, yump yump..

after tat we were planning to go bowling but there were so many ppl.. in the end, we end up in the arcade catching the soft toy.. we tried a lot of times, there were a few times tat it was so so close but just couldn't get it.. lol sia.. hehe.. fun fun FUN.....

Phileo Belated B'day Celebration

2006-08-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

Phileo Belated B'day Celebration

Hehe.. in the early afternoon, meet up with arthur 4 gym.. wooh, today training was super intense but we had so much fun in the gym.. ahhahahah.. it great to have someone together to train with you.. it make you feel motivate and willing to push yourself beyond the limit.. hehe..

after our gym training, we head down to bugis to celebrate my dear bro, phileo B'day.. actually his B'day is on the 26th but we really don't have the time to meet out so postphone till today.. saw alot of pos mates.. it been quite some time since we last met.. had a great time of fellowshiping and catching up with them.. ahhahaha.. i love them so mcuh.. will miss you all, wouldn't forget the time tat we had spend together.. ^_^

after our dinner, we went over to ps and cont our second part of the program.. we were playing pool and arcade, everyone seem to be so energetic.. arthur and me was so so tired sia but nonetheless we enjoy fellowshiping with them.. wat a great day man..

Physical Workout

2006-08-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

Physical Workout

Hmmm, just realise tat for the past one month i have been training training and more training.. going to gym, jogging, swimming and etc.. most of my time was fully delicated to all these training tat i realise i had not been spending much time with my friends lately.. especially those who care and concern for mi.. keep on asking mi to update my blog entry like sing yee, ex-cg members and blah blah blah..

so decided to make full use of my remaing two weeks time to meet up as many ppl as possible.. so call my "last supper" with them b4 i went in for my "chalet".. hmmm, despite of the intense training, i realise tat i didn't really improve alot maybe becos i simply love to eat.. hehe..

on sat, we had a combine cg meeting.. the theme is EAT ALL YOU CAN.. the whole table was full of food, lots and lots of nice food.. couldn't help but just keep eating.. oops, i going to give birth to a small ray soon.. ahahahahha.. On coming mon, we are meeting fro phileo B'day celebration.. more food coming along the way.. hehe..

Fellowship with wah keong

2006-08-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

Fellowship with wah keong

For those who read my previous entry, u would have known tat wah keong is my pos mate.. on tue he went into the police acadmeny and undergoes his intense training.. ahahhaha, heard lots of great and interesting stories from him.. how poice life is like, slightly different from the army one but it so fun.. hehe.. next time got anything, i will just gave wah keong a call and the policeman would arrive, great to have a policeman friend.. oops, seem like i abusing his authority.. ahahahha..

after the fellowship, i had a wonderful time walking home.. this is the first time tat i ever walk such a long long distance.. nonetheless, it was so so much fun.. venturing into the unkown and eploring the various diff parts of singapore.. had such a wonderful time, praise the Lord tat along the journey, we were well protected.. a fun and safe journey home.. oh ya, saw alot of bats while on the way home, so interesting.. didn't know tat u can really saw bats in such a city life.. i though u only get to see them in cave or mountain area.. so so interesting.. ahahahah.. *_*

received a cute little stuff.. though it is simple but the thoughts really matter alot.. thx for all ur effort, love the drawing alot.. hehe..

Sweet Land

2006-08-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

Sweet Land

today went to meet up with my pos mate b4 heading down for Doc A.R Benard svc.. we went to bugis to get some sweet for my kids.. cos tmlo i will be able to serve in children church again.. ahahahah.. i miss my kids alot but i could only go back when there no cg meeting and etc.. miss them and my children church workers alot.. i miss Miss MISS them so so much.. i love serving in children church.. though it alot of stress and need lots of cordination but nonetheless, i enjoying serving the Lord with all my heart, soul and mind.. hehe..

oh ya, we didn't just simply went to get sweet.. we find it abit boring so went to the arcade and grab some sweet.. had lot of fun in the arcade especially when u hook so many sweet up, hehe.. had a great sense of achievement.. yeah, tmlo my kids got lot of sweet to eat.. hehe..

Helping Elderly

2006-08-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

Helping Elderly

Woah.. today was one of the best day tat i had.. though i maybe tired and wear out but was rejoicing deep down in my heart.. today i went to help an elderly to repaint can clear up her hus.. learnt from one my dear dear bro, bernard tat he will be going down to an elderly hus to paint her hus.. he invited me to join him.. since i am doing nothing at home, might as well spent my remaining time doing smt more meangingful.. i accepted the offer immediately..

was slightly late but still managed to find my way over to tat hus.. hahahah, so proud of myself sia.. when i reach tat unit, i saw sis maria busy scraping the celling paint off.. i asked her is bernard arn and ber pop out behind of the door and gave mi a fright.. yea, i managed to find them.. hehe.. both of them had already started shifting the furniture and laying newspaper all arn the floor, getting read to start anytime..

upon reaching, i was asked to start painting the edges of the wall.. it look simple and easy but at the end of the day, u would find ur arm super tired.. nonetheless, i enjoy enjoying the elderly.. especially when u saw the smile on her face, u just felt tat everything u did is all worthwhile.. she is 92 years old this year.. i can tell u man, she doesn't look like 92 lohz, at most 70 plus, God is a good God.. hehe..

it was great to be able to work with sis maria, she is so so "zai" though she maybe just a sis but she is as strong and capable as bro.. the way she instruct and lead us, woah, she is amazing man.. ber and i had a long long way to go sia.. oh ya, the elderly hus got alot of spiders sia, i think i kill at least 10 plus of them, some were so so big.. was quite sacred of them initally but by the strength of the God, kill kill KILL.. ahahaha, seem like i am a big villian.. hehe.. a fun and memorable day..

wah keong

2006-08-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

wah keong

It was really really a great challenge fro mi to wake up so early in the morning.. it has been quite some time since i ever woke up so early.. (sun not counted) hehe.. finally pull myself out of the bed arn 7am, quickly rush down to chua chu kang to had my last meal with wah keong.. ahhaah, sound as if he not coming back anymore.. had a short fellowship with him.. wanted to scare him and make him feel nervous but it didn't work.. (not fun)
oh ya, say haloz to my buddy.. is he cute?? hehe..

after sending him off, went back home and catch a short nap.. oops, by the time i realise, i was late, quickly rush over to bedok and meet up with arthur.. was meeting him 4 gym, he say i too weak, need more training.. the gym was full of musclar ppl training, all look super fit and strong.. i finally realise how much more i must catch up.. arthur trashed mi flat in the gym, was totally demoralised but will be meeting him on thur again.. i don't believe i will lose to him again.. arrgggg....

Many many B'day celebration

2006-08-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

Mani mani B'day celebration

Hehe.. shall start off by saying tat this week had really been a super expensive week.. 80% of my financial was spent on fellowship and getting gift b4 others.. now must start my saving all over again le.. sob sob..

On mOn: went to celebrate my dear bernard B'day.. intially don't really wan to go de cos he never invite me but nonetheless i wan to surprise him but was found out, no fun.. had a hard time searching for a decent present for him, went up, down, left and right to look for his gift.. still has to be his model and after lots of arugemnt and discussion, we got him a necklace and shirt.. ahahhaa, although he didn't really like the gift but he greatly appreciated our effort.. hehe.. if i were the one, i would be touched too.. ahhaha..

on tue: went to celebrate sis shannon B'day.. was looking up and down for a decent pair of shoes, however we couldn't make up our mind to get her which pair.. as time drew nearer, we decided to get her tat shoes shop voucher but don't have.. oh man, wat to do.. in order not to arouse her suspicious, we went on with our usual plan of meeting up with her and eat first.. after fellowship, we went to her hus to play games.. first time been to shannon new hus, not bad.. quite interesting, i would say.. although nt much furniture but bro wuay boon and her had a special way of decorating the hus.. found it cosy and nice.. hehe.. when sis shannon was busy talking with bro wuay boon, we bring in the cake and m.s voucher.. she seem abit surprise but i really doubt tat she don't know anything.. ahhahaha..

after another round of cake eating, we went into her room and start playing monopoly and risk.. bro wuay was super pro in risk.. felix and mi was totally surprass by him sia.. after some peace treaty, we decided to join force and get rid of the strongest opponnent first, which is bro wuay boon.. despite of us joining forces, bro wuay still managed to put up a strong fight.. after a few round of fight, his army was depleted den we had our chance or revenge.. hehe.. although abit evil and feel bad for bro wuay boon but fighting one on one against him is really difficult man.. he is good at tat.. ahhahaa..

on wed: rest day.. hehe..

on thur: gym time.. ^-^

on fri: went to fellowship with my cousin.. heard an interesting plan from him.. will consider to use it in the future.. ahahahh.. initally wanted to celebrate his belated B'day but he doesn't really wan me to spent the money.. so i planning to do smt for him.. still brainstorming.. ahahhaha..

on sat: cg.. i simply love cg and my new cg members.. all of them took such great care of mi.. felt so love.. hehe.. i love jonathan singing, it was so so so nice.. he was my cg keyboardist as well.. young and talented youth shinning for God.. woah.. ahahahaha..

on sun: woah, svc was awesome.. especially when the msg is about husband.. every bro of my cg is so alert and paying full attention listening to the msg.. busy taking down note, man.. ahahhaha.. my cg's bro standard is rising, hahahaah.. den i can slack abit liao.. ooPS..

after svc, we went down to hongkong cafe to fellowship.. the food is so so nice.. especially the dessert and the bread.. beyond word description, however it came with a heavy price too.. this week super overspent sia.. lol.. after eating, we still go play billard, arcade, bowling.. cool.. ^o^

Events of the week

2006-08-05T01:58:00.000+08:00

Events of the week

ok, had not been blogging for quite some time.. was too tired and lazy to come and write my thoughts down but nonetheless i still make the effort to come and do it.. becos i though of my dear beloved reader so must still make the committment to do it for them.. ahhaha.. sound so noble sia.. --___--""

On mon, went out with ct, serene, joa, ber and kelvin to catch a show.. suppose to be a movie outing for the choir ppl, ber and i extra, join in the fun.. the plot was good just tat abit long winded and could guess the storyline from the start to the end.. so felt a bit boring but touching.. hehe..

on tue went out with friends to go swimming at clementi after tat head down to imm to eat and shop.. was quite fruitful and fun.. ahahha..

wed: was feeling abit too tired from the fun had from mon and tue so took some time at home to rest.. basically was sleeping all the time except time to wake up to eat.. ahhaha.. got abit out of shape.. argggg, must train and train..

thur: went to gym to train up on my arms.. too weak sia, till now still not able to do any of my pull up, ns is coming le.. cham sia.. must really put in more effort, don't wan to suffer too much inside.. hehe.. today gym was quite fruitful, broke my last week record.. now my chest feeling very pain.. lol..

fri: went playing soccer with my friends, after tat head down to eat prata for supper.. was thinking of losing weight but i tink the prata erase all my effort for the week le.. lol..

ahhaha.. tat was basically my schedule of the week.. still not very fruitful, will add in somemore events to make it better.. yea, going to tmlo fop.. been looking forward to it, believing tat it will be great and awesome.. not forgettign this sun is our 17th anniversary.. woah, my church 17 years old le.. hehe..

My Sacrifice

2006-07-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

New Song - My Sacrifice

Just got this song from my pos mates.. felt tat it very nice so decided to use it as my blog song.. ahhaha.. hope u all like it as well.. oh ya, just came back from gym.. now both my hands is so so pain.. could hardly lift them up.. tmlo will be even worse but somehow i enjoy it, cos i get to train myself up.. must get myself ready and prepared 4 my "BIG DAY" =)

Enjoying every single moment tat i had rite now..........

Hello my friend
We meet again
It's been a while
Where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart
Are memories
Of perfect love that
You gave to me
Oh, I remember

When you are with me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes
My sacrifice

We've seen our share
Of ups and downs
Oh, how quickly life
Can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and
Within your mind
Let's find peace there

Cause when you are
With me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes
My sacrifice

I just want to
Say hello again
I just want to
Say hello again

When you are with me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes

Cause when you are
With me
I'm free, I'm careless
I believe
Above all the others
We'll fly
This brings tears
To my eyes
My sacrifice
My sacrifice

(I just want to
Say hello again)
I just want to
Say hello again

My sacrifice

Lan/Arcade Outing

2006-07-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

Lan/Arcade Outing

B4 i touch on the main topic of the day, i shall fill u all bout my starting of the week.. my week didn't start off quite well.. had been sick since last sun till thur den fully recover.. was feeling quite sad cos i miss both church and cg pm as i am still not feeling too well to attend.. however praise the Lord tat i am fully recover and able to attend last nite cg and today outing.. i had really enjoy my new cg, all my new members took great care of mi and had always keep mi entertain.. had lot of fun fellowshipping with them..

however my time seem to be running out soon as my enlistment date drew nearer.. was feeling both nervous and excitied.. a total new ground tat awaits mi to conquer and overcome.. currently is slacking arn and enjoy every single moment tat i have.. ahhaha.. realise tat i have put on quite alot of weights recently so starting next week must start intense training le..

oh ya, today my team came in first for the dota competition.. my leader lead the team very well.. mi was merely supporting only, ahhaha.. thx God 4 the glory and grace.. so still planning when should i go and spent my voucher.. ahhaha.. nonetheless, wan to thx God tat one of my friend came 4 today event.. currently still working on him and hoping tat the presence of God would drew Him back to Him.. my members had really done a wonderful job in taking care of him.. thx lot guys..

A new chapater in my life

2006-07-01T12:52:00.000+08:00

A new chapater in my life

First of all would like to say a big thank to those who consistanly pop by readers.. ur enthu in getting to now more bout my life realli push mi on to write my thoughts down.. all i would say is tat, not tat i don't wan to blog, just tat there are too mani things happening in my life.. all are going so fast tat i really couldn't handle all of them at the same time.. therefore, i still finding back my true feeling in order to write down all the events..

i shall start my story by saying bout my dear pos mates ba.. with the end of emerge, it mark the new begining of sp ministry.. seriously somehow i miss sp and my fellow bro and sis whenever i remember tat i am no longer a sp student.. i had a sense of lost and loneliness, anyway no matter how i miss them.. there will always be a time tat all of us each had to move on to our own journey and path.. my time is up but they shall always be in my prayer especially my beloved M.R dept.. ^.^

next i shall talk bout my previous cg, w210.. on last sun, 25th of june.. my cgl offically announced tat our cg will be disband.. actually i was told long ago bout it tat we might face disband but when the news is cfm.. i still couldn't face the fact and was feeling very down and sad.. my heart is full of grief and hurt.. no matter how unwilling i don't want, there nothing more i can do.. on wed, 28th of june we had our last fellowship together as a cg and tat mark the end and also a new begining for all of us.. a fellowship tat stay deep in my heart.. how come we would never cherish what we have until we lost it.. by the time we want to get it back, all we could found is usually regret and disappointment..

i would never wan to go through such pains once again.. tmlo i will be meeting my new cg, N249.. a new begining, was full of expectancy and anxiety.. wonder wonder and more wonder....

After emerge, wat next?

2006-06-21T16:16:00.000+08:00

After emerge, wat next?

Oops, it has realli been a long long time since i able to sit down infront of my computer and take some time to ponder over all the things tat had happened in my life.. for the past one months it has realli been an interesting and fun walk with e Lord.. there are so much things tat beyond my imagination could imagine.. i believe more new things are coming along the ways.. i must get myself ready to and engage it at any times..

All i could say is tat emerge had realli been a great blessing to mi.. it has once again opened up my eyes and God had shown mi new vision and revelations.. this time round i shall hold on tightly to it.. i must protect it with all my hearts, for everytime i got a new vision, the devils would do all sort of things to put off my passion of fire.. den silently, he will steal and destoryed my dreams and vision. this time round, i wouldn't let it success anymore.. hmmm, this entries actually i type it long ago just tat didn't get the chance to complete it and post.. mani new thoughts had surfaced, i just wrote them down in my new entries.. hehe..

Making HAT

2006-05-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

Making HAT

Ahahaa.. today children church is as usual, busy doing the sound.. didn't really do a good one today due to miscommunication between here and there.. was quite sad and discourage but will continue to do my best and serve the Lord with all my heart.. hehe.. today during project hour, 9 years old group was to make a hat out using the materials tat was given to us..

As usual, my group was so "enthu" and mani mani suggestion and ideas was birth forth.. had a hard time controlling the kids down.. after assigning the tasks, all of them was have fun doing the hat.. some was cutting the different design to decorate the hat.. while other was getting the shape of the hat out.. another group was helping out to paste the design onto the hat.. was realli having lot of fun doing the hat with them.. love my group of children alot.. hehe.. oh ya, today went to buy a new hillsong kids cd.. the song was great and awesome.. my favourite song is "let the children come", it was beyond word tat can describe.. hehe..

Relaxing at Genting

2006-05-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

Relaxing At Genting

1st of May: Wake up arn 5.45am to get myself prepared to go to genting to have fun.. this is my second oversea hoilday, was looking forward to it.. didn't really had a good rest cos many things happened along the way just b4 my hoilday so was quite worried.. after praying to the Lord, i lift up all the burdens into His loving hand and off to my hoildays.. hehe.. the journey was long and boring, practically was sleeping all the way throughout cos last night stay up till 3 plus.. barely had 2 hours of sleep or should i say rest only.. lol..

Upon reaching genting, my heart was full of expectancy and looking forward to have a great time over here.. just when i alighted the bus, i felt a chill through my spine, it was so cold over at genting.. i was shivering as i make my way to the hotel room.. it was as thought u r in a huge freezer.. A whole new experience,i would say.. ahahah.. after unpacking our belonging, we went arn exploring all the different places in genting and also planning our next 3 days schedule at the same time.. 1st day in genting was quite boring as it was already late afternoon when we reach there.. wat i enjoy most is bathing cos i get to soak myself in the bath tub which i never get to do it in singapore.. hehe.. it was so fun..

2nd of May: On the second day, we decided to make our way to KL to shop cos it was really too cold and i forget to bring my jacket over despite repeated reminder.. -_-"" KL was so big, almost lost our way, somehow enjoy the thrill of exploring into the unknown.. where u will never know the outcome unless u had try it.. went around shopping here and there.. just b4 i realise it, all my money was spent on shopping.. the worse things is tat i had not get any gifts for any of my friends.. furthermore i don't have any money left for the next two days.. i was at a total lost, thx God 4 blessing mi with wonderful friends to c mi through the rest of my times in malaysia.. the shopping was great just tat i overspent too much.. lol..

3rd of May: Today finally we r going to the genting theme park to play.. hmmm, aft walking around the themee park, we realise tat there r nothing much to play.. however i still enjoy the fun kart where i get to drive the car round the track.. ahhaha, was raching against with my friends, won 1 and lost 1.. hehe.. the next thrilling station would be the roller coaster.. manage to get a very good pic, seriously i had no idea tat the camera was over there but it was really a good take.. hehe.. there r mani mani other stations as well but too lazy to wrrite each and every one of them out.. anyone interested can ask mi personally again.. ahhahaha..

4th of May: finally today mark the end of my hoilday.. after packing up all my stuff realise tat my bag become so heavy sia.. lol.. was totally different from my 1st day lagguage.. bought too much rubbish stuff liao lah.. the thoughts of sitting another 6 hours plus plus of bus journey really put mi off.. realli hope tat can quickly fly back home, miss my bed.. hehe.. here is some pics tat i took at genting.. oh ya, teh cable car was fun.. ^o^

Pos first viewing

2006-05-01T03:47:00.000+08:00

Pos first viewing

Indeed i would say and agree with many of the peoples tat Pos is fun and great.. place where u can mix around and share ur different thoughts with fellow brethen.. furthermore, u can learn alot from one another if u r willing to.. hehe.. definitely i would strongly encourage those who never participate in pos to at least try out and c how is it.. i believe most of u would enjoy it..

Being just a member or particpant of pos would bring u trememdous joy and fun.. however if u would be the one planning and cordinating the various stuff and event, it would be a great and heavy responsiblities.. no doubt tat i enjoy the time spent with my fellow pos mates.. however the preparation and admin stuff would really dry and stress someone out..

There are many times tat i really wanted to give up for this responsibilites is really too heavy for mi.. however everytime when i feeling down and weary, God would encourage and strengthen mi once again.. each night as i seek Him, revelations would begin to pour into my mind.. Really thx God 4 for showering mi under His great love.. for i wouldn't be able to walk til here if the Lord had not shown favour and care upon mi.. Thx Father 4 all tat He had done in my life..

"family" outing

2006-04-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

"family" outing

It had been quite some time since i last update my blog.. i really had no ideas how come i lost the passion to blog.. there r many things happening in my life, sometime so fast tat i didn't even had time to react to it.. is it becos tat i am tired or simply too lazy to blog? i shall reserve my comment on tat statement..

yup, today went to have dinner with my cls "family" members.. hmmm, if my memory serve mi rite, i believe tat this is the first time tat we meet together out to eat.. usually would be with other cls members and seldom had time to really talk to one another.. however this outing really bring great joy and laughter.. moreover, i was blessed with a cap for my advance army.. -__-""

Thx 4 leaving such a sweet memory in my life.. cherish the short and fruitful time spent with u all.. hehe.. next time we meet out again to celebrate my B'day k? ahahah.. mi so thick skin.. hehe..

Exploring the unknown

2006-04-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Exploring the unknown

Ahhaha.. today went to sim lim with felicia to check out on the different pricing for mp3 player.. initally was only accompanying felicia to look at different model of mp3 player.. however along the way, i was also tempted to get one 4 myself.. ahhaha, c how lah.. quite interested in tat model too.. ^o^

after our short tour in sim lim, we went down to orchard to meet up with ct with dinner.. ct bring us to a very interesting place tat i have never been to b4.. the food was nice especially when u get to cook it urself.. for those who r interested, do arrange a time with mi, we can go there and try out.. hehe..

these few days was realli quite tiring with my pos so don't wish to write too much stuff.. i shall let my pics explain on my behalf.. hehe..

Mugging 4 Word Power

2006-04-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

Mugging 4 Word Power

As usual, aft our bs we went 4 a short lunch at kfc den look 4 a place to settle down to fellowship b4 heading down to expo for my children church.. hehe.. while on our way, jun hui remind mi tat it bro william B'day today so we went to get him a card to wish him happi B'day..

upon reaching our destination, we settle and begin our second round of "party" the table was fill with food and drinks within second.. at the same time, all of us was busy mugging for our word power.. for we were given a second chance to retake our word power on the next coming cg.. tat y we cherish it so much.. hehe..

in the midst of having fun and laughter, lynn was so focused on her word power tat she was in her own world.. just look at the pics, u can c how seriously and focus she was.. ahhaha.. while mi was busy practicing my drawing.. hehe..

Fellowship at Tcc

2006-03-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

Fellowship at Tcc

As usual after our sat bs,we head down for a short lunch at the food court below suntec .. after our short fellowship, we head over to Tcc to continue our fellowship as it was still too early for us to go down to children church..

We started taking out our word power list and begin memorising them.. had a fun time testing one another and taking mani interesting pics.. especially our dear justin who fall asleep while fellowshipping.. ahahha.. a simple but enjoyable felloship.. ^0^

Class Chalet

2006-03-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Class Chalet

hmmm, actualli can't realli call it a class chalet lah cos only 7 out of 21 ppls came for the chalet.. ahhaha.. had a great time doing alot of stupid stuff.. all i couls say is tat this is a very unique chalet for mi lah.. it was totally difference from wat i had experience b4.. ahahhah..

our chalet was at the pa flat, first time been to tat place.. not too bad lah, quite a nice place i would say.. after setting down, we started playing computer games and playstation 2.. In the afternoon, they suggested go cycling.. i was like -__-"", mi dunno how to cycle, how to go cycling?? i volunteer to stay at the chalet to guard hus but was dragged out to learn cycling..

although after learning for hurs, i still not able to master it.. it was a whole new experience for mi lah.. dunno fall down how mani times sia.. no matter how i try, i would lean to the left or right, unable to maintain myself in the centre.. smt wrong with my cg, must go check it out.. ahhaha..

6 of us including mi stay overnight at the chalet, we play winning eleven throughout the whole night.. of the 6, i was the weakest of all sia.. keep on losing, demoralise.. -_-"

anyway, had a great time with them lah.. ahahaha.. was so tired when i reached home.. fell onto my bed and sleep all the way till 7pm.. by the time i wake up den realised tat it was too late le.. wanted to go for the spelling bee couching but who ask mi overslept so can't blame anyone lah.. now must figure out the pronounciation one by one le.. lol.. how come all the word seem so strange to mi.. anyway, it can help mi to improve my english, hehe.. tata..

Wonderful leader II

2006-03-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

Wonderful leader II

Beside my dear beloved shannon jie, i would realli thx God 4 placing bro arthur over my life.. since last year till now, he has realli been a tremendous blessing to mi.. guiding my path and training mi in all areas of my life.. teaching mi to be faithful in the little things tat has been assigned to mi.. telling mi wat the difference between a helper and a normal members..

Train mi to serve more in sp ministry, how to encourage my members to attend fellowship and prayer meeting.. it has realli been an eye opening 4 mi.. come to tink of it, time flies b4 i notice it.. bro arthur will be going into NS soon.. somehow quite miss the time tat spend with him..

all i could say tat his way of "discipleship" is totally from wat i had came across.. maybe it becos he only on his way but not yet a cgl.. however it just a matter of time tat he became one.. today had a great fellowship with arthur and other pos mates.. realli learnt alot from them.. hehe.. ^o^

Wonderful Leader

2006-03-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

Wonderful Leader

God is always a good God.. He never fails to comfort us whenever we r down.. heal our broken heart whenever we meet with trails and tribulation.. really wan to thx God for placing such a wonderful, awesome, amazing, marvellous leader in my life.. guiding and teaching mi throughout my walk with God.. leading mi back to the right paths whenever i lost..

all i wan to say is tat without her, i will not be able to be here.. i would have left God long ago, however it's her encouragement tat keep mi going on.. each time drawing mi closer and closer to God.. training and equiping mi with the word of God.. teaching mi how to interact better with other members.. all i could say tat she is a very good leader.. always caring for us, putting us above herself.. always going the extra mile for us..

Just as i was feeling tired and lost, we had a chat over the phone.. although it was just a simple casual talk but it really bring my thinking to a whole new level.. pressing in toward the leader's life will really bless and changed u tremendously.. i will definitely remembered wat u told mi and obey wat u have taught.. thx for sowing a seed into my life.. ^0^

On my way to graduation

2006-02-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

On my way to graduation

Finally today is my last paper.. as the paper ended, i was filled with joy and sadness at the same time.. praise the Lord tat i had fight a good fight and finally finish my 3 years of study..a new path shall be set b4 mi, for we planned our way but the Lord shall direct our paths.. i believed tat God had a great plan for mi this year.. humbly as i am, i delicate my life to the Lord.. Mould and use mi as u wan mi to be.. let mi be a blessing to those tat around mi..

As i looked back, times flies even b4 u notice it.. it was as thought yesterday tat i just enter poly and now i graduating soon.. some how realli miss the times tat we spend in sp.. the joy, laughter, excitement, mischivevous act tat we had.. b4 i went into army, realli wan to do as much as i could for sp.. deep down in my heart, i believed revival is coming to sp.. God is only looking for peoples who going to stand in between the gap..

Ppls who willing to lay down their life to Him.. young as we may be but our heart cry out to serve u and seeing our friends saved.. want to see a great new change in our campus..

Give and it shall be given to you

2006-02-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Give and it shall be given to you

Defintely today is not the day tat i blog this entry.. the date actually serve as a reminder to mi wat had happened to mi on this day.. i noe tat it had been some time tat i update my blog.. really sorri to my faithful blog reader.. was realli held up by my exam and other stuffs.. really appreciate tat u take e time to check out on mi.. will try my best to keep u all info on how God is working in my life..

First of all want to share a testimony with all of u.. on sunday which is 2 days ago, i finally clear my building fund.. praise the Lord.. Just like wat the bible say, in Luke 6:38=> Give, and it will be given to you; good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you."

Today i received a brand new Hi-Fi set from my beloved mum.. ahahha.. although i wanted one long ago but i didn't really ask for it.. however God noe inside and outside of us.. He never fails to answer our prayer and bless us in all areas of our life.. Just wan to thank God for being so faithful, for even a little in the master's hand shall become abundant.. ^0^

Fight a good fight of faith..

Up and Down

2006-02-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

Up and Down

Ahhaha, just like to share with all my dear readers that this is my 100 entries.. hehe.. since the first day that i started blogging, i didn't realise that i would write so much craps.. hehe.. thx 4 being so faithful and come to my blog once in a while to check up on mi.. really appreciate that.. listening to all my nonsense and rubbish.. ahhaha..

pardon mi for not able to update 4 such a long period of time.. for the past few weeks, it had really being a great challenge to mi lah.. many events and stuff had happened, a great mixture of feelings..

first of all, basically i was exhausted and stressed out by my exams and final year project.. all i could say is that fyp really take up lots of time.. most of my time was spent on doing reports, my sturcture and mani mani other small small stuffs.. really thx Heavenly Father for the strength to keep mi going on..

next, just when i was going to breakdown, friends appeared by my side to encourage and support mi, thx for all the care and concern that u all shower upon my life.. although u may not know it but ur word simply strengthen mi.. thx God 4 placing wonderful ppls around mi to help and support mi.. for God say, two is better than one.. Amen..

at last my final year project come to an end, although onli left with the reports lah.. just when i though that i could relax and enjoy myself, somethings hit mi real hard.. somethings tat i could never imagined or though of.. basically my world just broke down and shatter into pieces.. i was at a total lost and realli have no ideas wat to do, where to go and how to handle it..

my mind was completely blank.. instantly darkness engulf over mi.. bitterness and hatred begun to arise from my heart.. i keep asking why such a thing would happen, just b4 hatred word come forth from my mouth, shannon testimonial came straight into my mind.. A light tat shine right throught the dark sky and darkness was fading off slowly.. my anger and hatred was weep off as i recall wat she shared..
"we do not praise God for wat had happen but we praise Him despite of the tough situation we are in. the time tat u least feel like praising Him, should be the time tat u praise Him the most."

i begin to regain my conscious and decided to seek and honour God first.. during svc praise and worship, i could no longer hold back my sorrow.. tears were flowing out non-stop and there was no way i could hold back to it.. this is the first time tat i cry during praise.. Presence of God was so strong and tangible throughout the whole svc.. God's love was covering all over mi.. healing my broken heart.. Thank you sis shannon for praying 4 mi..

last but not least, i would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to my fellow bros and sisters who supports and encouraged during my darkest period.. if not for the care and concern tat u have sow, i don't think i can be back to my normal self in such a short time.. God is good all the time and all the time God is good.. Amen.. ^0^

Walk In Truth

2006-01-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

Walk In Truth

This is one of the articles that i receive daily.. wish to share with my dear blog readers.. It realli bring mi into deep thoughts.. hmmm..

To Walk Through Life According To Principle
Often Means You Must Walk Alone.

Psalm 1:1
"Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
Nor stands in the path of sinners,
Nor sits in the seat of the scornful."
(NKJV)

Not everyone is interested in taking the proverbial "straight and narrow." To walk through life according to principle often means you must walk alone. But integrity requires you to walk in truth, thus affirming your faithfulness to God and to those with whom you associate.

Integrity also means that as you build relationships, both parties must be willing to speak the truth in love, at the expense of offending each other. Solomon gives us some insight into this idea, "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of the an enemy are deceitful." Because human beings have a desire to be valued and affirmed, we tend to gravitate towards those who will tell us what we want to hear. We subconsciously surround ourselves with individuals who put on a facade of commitment, because quite frankly, it feels good. This only leads to one place—a place of loneliness, with no bankable relationships.

May God help us to refuse to allow anyone into the intimacies of our life, if they are unwilling to agree and comply with the proven principles of truth and integrity.

Arthur's B'day Celebration

2006-01-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

Arthur's B'day Celebration

last week was a veri tiring and stressed week 4 mi.. was busy preparing 4 my exam, doing past year paper and had been studying till 3am in the morning.. b4 i able to enter into my dreamland, had to force myself to wake up at 6am to get myself ready 4 the morning exam.. practically i was taking 2 to 3 cups of coffee during my exam period to keep myself awake.. thx God 4 the strength to endure through my tough period..

intially though tat after my friday paper, i would be able to relax 4 a short while.. however to my horror, this wasn't so.. cos the coming week, i had to get 15 people report out b4 our final year presentation.. actually it was 5 groups, 3 person per team.. mi and my friends, the two of us were assigned to compiled and edited all 5 groups report.. den after this week, the coming week will be our fyp presentation.. it going to be a busy and packed weeks 4 mi..

today just taken my nafa test.. did quite badly 4 it, must really train up 4 the coming re-test.. after my nafa test, rush down to celebrate my beloved sp ic, Arthur B'day.. although the time tat we spend together was not veri long but i realli love to linger around with my sp mates, especially arthur..

Although he was a leader to us, i just felt so comfortable and easy by his side.. able to joke and make fun of him.. i wouldn't felt pressure or stressed talking to him.. off course when it come to serious stuff, i wouldn't fool around with him lah.. Really blessed to known such a wonderful bro in my life.. teaching and guiding mi in my walk with christ.. telling mi wat other alternatives i can use to reach out to fellow sp mates.. i am truly grateful 4 wat he had sow into my life.. tat is y all of us is willing to give our best to him, blessing him with a Ed Hardy shirt.. nice rite, mi help in the chosing also.. hehe..

hereby i would like to share a testimonial on behalf of all the sp mates.. our SP ministry is growing day by day.. since last years july till now, we have been growing constantly.. more and more sp chc members are also making an effort to commit themselves to this minstry.. meeting up weekly 4 pray meeting or fellowship.. really thx God 4 wat He is doing in our campus.. truly i believe tat sp will no longer be the same as b4.. this little fire will cont to grow and shine to other fellow sp mates.. REVIVAL is going to break forth in SP..

Dear blog reader, if u have been taking notice.. 4 the past few entries i would add in some photos to give u a clearer picture of my recent event tat happening around mi.. hope u all find tat useful.. ^.^

SP christmas celebration

2005-12-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

SP christmas celebration

Ahhaha.. this year is my second year celebrating christmas.. in the past, christmas was just another hoilday for mi.. it had no special meaning and mean nothing to mi.. however ever since i receive christ, i know the true meaning behind christmas, it the day that Jesus is born.. the day where the whole of mankind is going to experience a new begining like never b4.. i am so grateful 4 wat he had done 4 all of us.. if not 4 Him, we would not have the chance to be back into our Heavenly Father's embrace..

still rememer tat last year christmas was spent with my beloved cg at our dear cg leader, shannon's parent hus.. it was fun and great.. somehow miss the good old time spend with my ex-cg members.. whereas this year was even more happening for mi.. after the wonderful candlite svc a few days ago.. today had my christmas celebration with my fellow sp mates.. had a great time fellowshipping, game was great but tiring.. whereas food was nice and delicious.. thankgiving rox.. time flies when you have fun, hehe..

Hope u enjoy the pics.. ahhaha.. ^o^

Candlite Svc

2005-12-18T20:50:00.000+08:00

Candlite Svc

Ahhaha.. throughout my 19th year of life, today was the first time attended a candlight svc.. it was extravagant, beyond words could express.. u must there urself to experience this wonderful and awesome sight.. however hope my experience could inspire ur imagnation.. hehe..

First, all of us was given a candle den the whole hall's light was switch off.. it was totally pitch dark and suddenly a beam of light brith from the stage.. pst Kong's candle was lit up and begin lighting the candle of others pastor.. Den they were send to the aisle and begin lighting up the fire of the usher tat at the aisle.. next the usher would pass it down to the first person in each row.. den the person would begin to pass down one by one..

Initally the candle light tat we hold on may seem insignificant.. the light was so small and the hall was still in pitch dark.. however as we begin to lit up the fire around us, the light begin to grow.. as one we may seem weak and small however as a whole we r strong and big.. times and times in our life, trails and tribulations will just keep coming, trying to destory or put out the little hope(fire) tat we have.. if we chose to take the easy way, we could just simply blow off the fire.. however only those who chose to protect the fire from being blown out will stand up to the trails.. relying upon God's strength instead of our own knowing tat God's will eventurally see us through all things.. for He will never gives us to bear things more than we can..

the passing on of fire from one person to anothers also represnts unity and encouragements (own revelation).. giving helps to one anothers whenever they need it.. keeping each others in prayer.. fellowship with one another to know each others better.. making sure tat we have a upright spiritual walk with our heavenly Father and at the same time helping the younger members in their walk.. guiding and teaching them the true way to God.. Not only do we shine brightly ourself but we must also influence others tat around us with this zeal.. this special aura tat God's had disposed in us.. let cont to shine brightly in our different areas and glorify God for His wonderful and greatness..

Hopw u will enjoy the pics tat i posted below.. ^-^

Sacrifices

2005-12-01T08:10:00.000+08:00

Sacrifices

This thought had been in my mind 4 quite some time.. was realli bless by wat Pst Phil Pringle share on sunday svc.. In our different stages of life, we tend to have different desires or dreams.. sometime tat desire or dream matter to you so much tat u willing to give all ur attention and time to it.. even to the extend of neglecting God and "throwing" Him aside.. oOps!

Even for myself, there r time tat i realli don't wish to let go of tat desire or dream.. keep holding on to it and refusing to let it go despite e Lord had spoken to mi.. hoping tat through my own's strength, i will be able to achieve it.. as expected, i fail and hurt badly.. come to think of it, i was such a fool, doing all those silly stuff.. wat strength do i have? aren't all my strength from the Heavenly Father who renew mi every morning.. isn't God's way higher than ours. isn't God's foolishness is still wiser than the wiser man on earth? y hide and run away from Him when all of us noe tat He is truly the almighty one..

God is a good God.. He never force His thinking on mi.. He could have stop mi at tat point of time but instead giving mi a choice to make my own decision.. although i make the wrong choice but He is merciful enough to shower His abundance grace upon mi.. guiding mi back to the right path tat He has always intended mi to be.. Pressed as we maybe but we r not down, crashed as we maybe but we r not destroy.. God is a merciful God..

many time we would put something else above God.. be it our friends, family, dream or desire.. it is so easy to tell God tat u love Him and willing to do anything for Him.. however if God were to tell u right now to give up ur most precious to Him.. the very most important things tat in ur heart right now.. R u willing to let it go? it is easy to just say it out however not many able to act it out..

Even for myself, i realli struggle of letting go of it.. i was finding reasons and aruging with God tat He don't want tat de.. how bout letting go of this, this and this.. u wouldn't be interested in tat.. However God's word just pierce through my heart like a sword..

"Ray, do u love mi"
"yes,i do"
"Den lift up this upon e altar of sacrifice"

at tat point of time, i realli can't find any other reason to aruge with God.. No matter wat reasons i give, all of them were merely as though excuses.. if i truly love Him and put Him first and only in my heart.. there isn't anythings tat i can't give it to Him.. it really hurt alot to let go of tat.. however if it is 4 e Lord, no matter how big e sacrifice is, everythings is worth it..

My blog dieing?

2005-11-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

My blog dieing?

Dear blog reader.. sorry to keep u all waiting.. mi had realli been quite busy with my projects and etc.. causing mi not able to update my blog tat reguarly.. if by any chance tat my blog is diagnoise with terminate illness and is dieing.. rest assure tat u all will be inform bout it.. if not my blog will continue to grow, just tat not as fast as b4.. perhaps u all may speed it up by feeding it with some remarks or comments.. tat would realli help alot.. hehe..

last night just attend my youngest uncle's wedding dinner.. basically i don't really enjoy it lah.. cos most of the relatives, i don't realli noe them tat well.. thus there wasn't much conversion.. most of the time i was only talking to my god-mother and my god-grandma.. yesterday was e first time tat i saw my god-grandma le.. was so excited and shy at the same time.. i even had difficulites calling grandma when i saw her.. >_<

hmmm, as 4 the food wasn't realli up to my expectation or should i say, i dunno how to appreciate it? i really don't find abalone, shark fin, scallop appealling at all.. if u were to give mi satay, maybe i would enjoy it better.. Lol..

Children church costume

2005-11-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

Children church costume

B4 i go into my topic, wish to share with my dear blog reader wat had happened 4 the whole day.. indeed it was a tiring but meaningful day 4 mi.. hehe..

early in the morning, mi went to bedok to meet up with ct and fellowship with her.. praise the Lord 4 the strength to wake mi up so early.. i realli cruicfy my flesh to get myself out of my bed.. throughout the mrt journey, i was still in half awake, half sleeping condition.. oh ya, thx God 4 guiding mi to ct block too.. ahhahah.. ct, u touch bo??

after fellowshipping with ct, eric and serene 4 a short while, i make my way back home first.. realli priase the Lord 4 protection and guidance.. after boarding the bus, i fall asleep instantly.. i was suppose to alight at tampanise but b4 i realise, i was already at somewhere in bedok.. deep down in my heart, fear begun to cripple mi.. i was like keep on praying and beliving tat God will c mi through and true indeed tat He does.. the bus somehow pass by bedok interchange and i quickly alight.. God is a good God..

Den i take bus 24 back home first to get some stuff and charge my mobile phone at the same time b4 meeting up with my children church helper.. once again, realli give thank to God.. the bus was shaking up and down, in no time i was back to my dreamland, zzZZZ.. however this time round, i didn't miss my stop le.. just b4 i reach my stop, i heard the Holy Spirit shouted in my ear and i was awake instantly.. ahhahah, Thank God..

Next, i went down to doubt ghaut to meet up with my friend b4 making our way to bouna vista to get our costume.. today cch was having a fairy tale theme.. every teacher and children was suppose to come wearing a costume.. so after searching high and low, we manage to find our costume.. in the end, guess wat, i was wearing the batman costume.. it look quite weird but it was fun.. hehe..

after my svc, went to meet up with ken and fellowship with him.. true indeed tat my day is pack and tiring.. however i simply find joy when i able to find time to fellowshp with fellow bro and sis.. i would rather spent my time with them than spending it on computer or tv.. thx God 4 blessing mi with so mani bro and sis in christ.. making such a great difference in my life..

simply LOVE u with all my heart, JESUS..

Mi sis 15th B'day

2005-11-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

Mi sis 15th B'day

Ahhaha.. nothing much to write.. let the pics speak 4 mi lah.. ^.^

I am who I am

2005-11-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

I am who I am

after reading lynn entries, i was quite encourage by wat she had blogged.. basically we r who we r.. God make everyone of us differently throughout the world, u could never find another person who is same as u.. having the same character and behaviour.. everyone is unique and wonderfully make in God's eye.. all of us r precious in His sight..

no doubt, throughout our life we will came across with mani ppls.. they tend to make various type of remarks on us.. if everytime we were to change ourself or character according to wat they have say.. we would have lost our true self in the midst of changing.. at the end of day, u may not even noe who u actualli r??

true indeed tat some of the remarks is for our own good.. however tat doesn't mean tat all of the remarks is suitable for us.. some of the ppls is born that way, it quite unlikely to ask them to change completely to another person unless it is by God.. even if he or she were to do so, tat wouldn't be the person whom u have once known liao..

we live a life accountable to ourself and to God.. sometime we need not take it too hard bout other ppls comment.. so long u search ur conscience and ask whether have u let God or urself down or not? if the answer is NO den u can just continue in ur action.. if not den perhape u may consider seeking God for an answer to guide u in ur path..

I am who i am.. i don't care bout wat other ppls say so long i live a life tat is pleasing to God.. ^o^

Why is it u?

2005-11-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

Why is it u?

Initially my day started quite well.. meeting up early in the morning to play soccer with my buddy.. everything was going well and smooth just tat i realli need to put in more effort to train up my soccer.. it seem tat my soccer skills have realli degraded alot lohz.. need some serious training 4 my coming nafa test too..

after hearing teh remark tat he has make, i realli can't bring myself to focus on the match anymore.. at tat point of time, i realli think of just walking away.. i realli don't wan to end up quarreling with one another but i can't take tat comment lying down too.. seriously i was quite lost and helpless at tat point of time..

it has been so long and yet they still think tat i am tat kind of person? no doubt i have to admit tat part of the remark is true but tat was all in the past le.. if this remark were from others, i wouldn't even bother to care bout it.. however it is from u.. we have noe each other 4 so long le.. u should noe veri well of mi.. in ur opinion, am i realli tat kind of person?

seriously 4 the whole afternoon, i have been pondering on this issue.. is it mi or u tat has changed? there seem to be some sort of a barrier in between us.. r u still the person tat i have once noe or is it tat i am the one tat changed?

Bible studi on Tabernacle

2005-11-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Bible studi on Tabernacle

ahhaha, as usual wed is always my most happening day.. after my lesson, quickly rush over 4 sp prayer meeting.. praise the Lord tat sp prayer meeting is growing.. more and more sp chc members is gathering in school to pray 4 the school and church.. deep down we believe tat young as we maybe but we going to be the generation tat make a difference in our campus..

true indeed the first step is always full of trails and obstacles.. however we noe tat our sacrifice is worthwhile cos in the coming future, the whole sp will benfit from our sowing.. although we may not be the one tat reap the harvest but if no one willing to make the first step to sow, how den will there be a harvest to reap..
deep down in my heart, i believe tat God had heard our cry and answer our prayer.. transforming sp into a whole new level..

after my prayer meeting, rush over to meet up with lynn, net and his dad 4 bs.. woah, was greatly bless by the bs.. the teaching on tabernacle realli open up my mind and bring forth new understanding in God.. i want to be water baptised.. i will pray veri hard and do pray 4 mi too..

oh ya, back to ur qn, wat if u didn't take tat route and miss mi.. my ans is tat i believe and trust in u.. ahhaha..

Street Raider

2005-10-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Street Raider

Wake up early in the morning to get myself ready for the coming cg and street raider.. believing tat it going to be a great and awesome day.. although today sermon is abit short but no doubt the presence of God was in the midst of us.. simply enjoy His presence and Word.. ;)

after our cg, quickly rush down to esplande to meet up with rino and 2 of his friends by the name of alvin and wil.. ahhaha, ps ps to keep u all waiting 4 so so long.. oh ya, there r a total of 25 teams tat participate in this street raider.. hehe, mi is the leader for my team le.. no doubt, it was realli a test on both ur phsyical and mental..

everyone in my team realli give in their best in this game.. basically throughout the game, we were running non-stop.. praise the Lord tat i have a few team members who noe the areas quite well.. manage to use the shortest time to find out the shortest route to the next station..

indeed God is a good GOd.. realli thx Him 4 His mercy and grace.. everytime when we reach the bus stop, our bus just simply came.. we need not waste our time on waiting 4 bus.. in addition my members was well equip with maps and etc stuff to speed up the process.. we were simply a great and awesome team.. Hehe..

all our effort was worthwhile in the end.. after all the sweating and running, we manage to emerge as th winning team.. hehe.. indeed, it was tough but the process was great.. ;)

Outing With Shannon Jie

2005-10-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Outing With Shannon Jie

Woah, today after my final year project went down to plaza singapura to meet up with shannon, lynn, feli, ct, serene, ken, joa and pierson for dinner.. ahhaha, was late by 10 minutes but i am still the third person who reach there.. i can be there on time de lohz but i shall not find anymore excuses for myself.. late mean late, no point finding reasons to defend 4 myself.. oh ya, y they meet at long john silver le.. i still thinking of going to burger king to eat de lohz.. ;(

after eating and chating, ct and serene have to rush off for their lesson.. leaving the rest of us planing 4 our next activities.. after much pondering and suggestion, we finally made our way to great world city to play arcade.. to my surprise, this is actualli suggest by shannon jie.. ahhhaha, i didn't noe tat she actualli like such stuff de.. we realli have a great time over there.. once again, i need to clarify tat it not my hand tat is long, it my body.. ahhaha..

after having a great time at the arcade, we went over to mac and have ice-cream.. ahhaha, shannon jie bless us with ice-cream sia.. thx thx.. strawberry ice-cream is nice hor although mac one still have a long way to go.. oops, i not trying to say mac strawberry sundae not nice lah.. just tat it not up to my standard lah.. hehe.. ;)

Tmlo is the street raider liao.. my team is gotten to win it.. hehe..

Back from cruise

2005-10-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

Back from cruise

Ahhaha.. Home sweet Home.. reach singapore on wed nite around 7 plus.. realli miss my parents, cg mates & mani others of my friends on the last day.. have an urge to rush back to c u all.. miss u all sia.. ;_;

wish to share with u all wat had happened during my 4 days 3 night trip.. the first day was quite interesting lah.. went around knowing ppls and get to noe quite a few close friends.. the 6 of us often move and eat in group.. realli enjoy my time with them..
Top row: Marcus, Rino
Second row: Pei Xian, Ray, Freedy
Front row: Kelvin

During the second day, we began going round the ship and start our exploration.. the ship was super big sia, got alot of facilties too.. mini golf court, basketball court, games room, galaxy of stars (pub), celebrity disco, ktv, swimming pool and mani mani more.. went so mnai places and almost get myself lost.. thx god 4 the invention of map.. Ahhaha.. not forggeting to mention tat the food taste wonderful.. yump yump..

Finally, the third day is a day of rest for all of us.. a day of fun and my shopping hours.. ahhaha.. went down to phuket with a heart of expectancy but was abit disappointed.. cos most of the time was spent on travelling and hardly much time 4 mi to shop.. didn't even get presents 4 my family members lohz.. they have been nagging mi 4 days le.. anyway, phuket was realli a nice and beautiful place..

After a day of shopping under the hot sunny sun.. we drag our weary body back to the cruise.. preparing 4 the Glal dinner aka captain nite.. it is a night where everyone will put on their best smart looking outfit.. How do i look in my formal attire??

oh ya, realli thx God 4 blessing mi with such a great wonderful team.. our group name are entertainment and just as our name was.. we provide entertainment to others and as well as to ourself.. everyone was all willing to play and work as a team.. we give our best, play the best and we rox the best.. ENTERTAINMENT ROX!!

My Belated B'day

2005-10-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

My Belated B'day

Hereby i wish to thx my jie and my fellow chinese language society friends 4 giving mi this special belated B'day gift.. this is my first time tat i receive flower throughout my 19th years of life.. i realli didn't expect it at all.. somehow i quite like it lah.. it now in my room and i trying my best to take good care of it..

initally the flower seem to be dying and it head is tilt downward.. after under my care, at least it growing and looking better.. just tat the leave seem to be dying and i dunno wat to do bout it.. for those who have special talent or knowledge bout it, pls do sms mi immediately..

li ping jie, realli appreciate ur sweet thought.. know tat u sacrifice alot by going to the market to get it for mi.. thx thx.. btw, does my flower look like mi?? ahhaha..

LTC briefing

2005-10-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

LTC briefing

whahaha, today went for my leadership training course briefing early in e morning.. miss my sweet bed.. some more the briefing lasted from 8.30am to 5.30pm.. it realli drained out my energy, both physically and mentally..

to my horror is tat i have to wear formal attire on the second last nite 4 the dinner.. we even have to learnt how to use which set of fork and knife 4 wat.. ways of ordering food, different ways to eat diff foods.. now i also come to realise tat u can actualli use fork and knife to eat rice de.. 4 the past 19 years, i didn't know tat eating require such a great profound of knowledge.. do pray tat i wouldn't made a whole mess of it..

oh ya, for those who happen to drop by and read this entry.. do pray 4 mi can.. i will be on cruise from 9th to 12th of oct.. which will leave singapore from monday morning and will be back on wed nite.. hmmm, hopefully they will release mi earlier, i don't wan to miss my bible studi.. sob sob.. heard from my friends tat there isn't much to get over there.. so for those who wan a sourvenier, do drop mi a msg or send mi a sms.. i will try my best to catch some fish back 4 u de.. ahhaha.. if not, how bout coral, prawn or even crab, if i manage to smuggle them back.. oopS..

Exam Over

2005-09-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Exam Over

Ahhaha.. finally my exam period is over and i mark the new start of my hoilday.. was realli happi bout it lah.. was realli looking forward to this hoilday cos there r simply too mani things tat i wan to get it done but don't have the time 4 it.. this hoilday should be able to fulfill them ba.. ahhhaha..

first of all, wish to mention bout yesterday BS.. was veri bless by wat i have learnt.. although it may be just a short lesson but also learnt quite alot.. not to mention tat this give mi extra time to prepare 4 my today exam and some time 4 us to fellowship.. yup, wish to take this opportunity to thx u 4 encouraging mi at this period of time.. u noe who u r lah..

woah.. today paper was quite alright lah.. able to answer most of the qns not forgetting to give thx and glory to the Lord.. realli thx Him 4 guiding mi along my paper and my prepartion.. i noe veri well tat my heart and strength had fail.. however HE is my strength and portion, i will draw near to Him.. for those who seek and shall find.. In His presence, it is simply so great and amazing.. one touch from Him is better than anything tat u can desire of on earth.. Love Him with all my heart..

after my paper, went out with my classmates to enjoy our celebration.. first of all, we went to swim swim.. it realli been a long time since i exercise.. my stomach seem to be growing in size and weight.. therefore decided to have a good workout.. after tat we went to Big Big Bookshop to shop shop.. ahhhaha, i manage to get something tat i been searching for.. Praise the Lord..

after tat went down to pungol and play basketball.. today was quite a tiring but fun day.. just the first day of my hoilday and i been palnning so mani mani activities.. wonder wat my next plan shall be le?? hmmm Hmmm HMMM..

Fufilling the God-dream in you

2005-09-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

Fufilling the God-dream in you

Came across this article at guitar4christ, find tat it quite inspiring.. therefore decided to share with all my dear readers.. hope tat u all will enjoy it and make an committment toward the Lord.. let us cling on to God and the seed tat He had planted in us..

"Where there is no vision, the people perish..." Proverbs 29:18a

This verse has been one that puts fundamental Christians off from time to time. Why would God associate this verse just before this:-

"but he that keepeth the law, happy is he."
Proverbs 29:18b

I believe that there is a reason that God puts it there. Vision is a seed that God puts into the hearts of believers. It can be of a certain ministry that God wants you to join or a certain group people that God wants you to evangelise to.

Notice that the bible did not say:- "but he who has vision, happy is he." It is not so much the vision that brings out God's plans for his children but it is when his children decides to fufill that God-planted seed in them that they are truly blessed.

It is not merely having that vision but doing and carrying it to completion. Moses did not stop at the point where he had the vision (burning bush) that God would save the Israelites but begin to travel back to Egypt and see that vision coming to pass.

I feel that there are 4 things that one must acquire in order to fufill this God-dream in him.

No. 1 : Faith

"Without faith, it is impossible to please God."

Indeed, we must have faith. Along the path to fufilling this God-dream, we will face alot of opposition from the Evil One and also from the world. It is not easy to walk this path. With men it is impossible but with God, all things are possible." Have faith in God cos faith like the size of a mustard seed can move mountains.

No. 2: Perseverance

"Let us run this race with perseverance..."

Don't give up. No matter how heard the goings, God will always be there for you. Fix your eyes on Jesus and the goal ahead. When you have finished the race, God will present you with the crown of Life.

No 3: Pray without ceasing

When you work, u work. When God works, He works. Commit your vision to God for He is the one who has planted. He is the garderner. Pray whenever and wherever u can. God hears!

No. 4: Keeping God's laws

That's the very reason God put the verse about vision with the one about keeping his laws. before you can fufill ur God dream, obey his laws! Hide it like David so that you will not sin against Him. When u do what is right and please God, I can tell you for sure, the heavens will open and God will just pour out His plans and purposes into your life for you have took the effort to keep his commandments. Do small things before you can be allowed to do the big things.

Have the joy of the Lord to be your strength!

Totally Depressed

2005-09-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Totally Depressed

Had my very first paper, ARF today.. was veri veri sad bout the outcome of it.. the whole paper seem like an alien to mi.. i couldn't even understand what it was actualli asking from mi.. what i studi didn't come out at all.. throughout my paper, i was basically struggling..

after my paper, mani thoughts keep rushing into my mind.. had i not studi enough or wat? what have i been doing all this while? wat is wrong with mi? during power house, this is the first time tat i couldn't enter into God's presence.. there somethings deep down in my heart tat bother mi so much tat i couldn't even focus myself on Him..

Do hope tat i can somehow get over it or wat.. if this was to carry on, i realli had no ideas wat to do.. i had been crying 4 far too long le.. it time i pack up my feelings and set aside all this distraction.. i can't allow this to carry on anymore..

oh ya, i simply love bible studi.. realli learnt alot in the words of God.. perhaps the words of God could help mi to set my mind back on the right track.. i can't allow my mind to go on wandering around.. must get it back and focus on my coming exam le..

Lost in tears..

secret place

2005-09-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

secret place

Yup, God is a good God and devil is a bad devil.. there r mani things going on in my life.. things tat changing and making an impact in my life.. would realli like share with u all but just don't noe how to express it out with words..

things tat realli inspire and encourage mi.. things tat realli bother and hurt mi alot.. pls pardon mi 4 not able to blog out the specfic details.. currently i realli not in a good state to write out my feelings.. i do need some time with my Gods in our secret place first.. maybe after i found my answer den i can share with u all..

Holding on

2005-09-11T02:05:00.000+08:00

Holding on

sometime i realli felt sad and discouraged bout the results that i get.. despite of the great effort tat i had sow in, i could hardly see the fruits tat i had hope or expecting of.. i realli asked myself, had i not been praying enough or in what ways did i do wrong.. how come the results just didn't turn out to be what i had been praying of.. i was greatly disappointed bout that..

for the past weeks, i had been calling up my friends, inviting them to come for the youth edition.. i realli try all the ways and means that i could possible think of or come up with.. however the results was not as fruitful as i have expected.. mani of them still rejected my invitation.. excuses just keep coming in and my burden just grow heavier.. it not the number tat i realli concern bout but just felt sad tat my friends still remains on the "other side".. when will they open up their hearts to receive Him into their's life..

there was times tat i realli wanted to give in.. rise up my white flag and surrender but God simply pull mi back.. i would like to share with u all wat God had spoken to mi during my quiet time.. tat nite, i simply wept b4 the Lord as i seek after Him.. my burden for my friends was so great tat my tears just keep flowing..

He remind mi that, my cry, He had saw it.. my prayer, He had heard it.. Don't worry, come to mi my child, i will give u rest.. friends who may rejects u or even drifted away from u.. however do cheer up for I am ur friend.. obedience is what i desire not sacrifice.. abide in my words and i shall abide in u.. say the Lord..

Thank heavenly papa for always staying by my side when i needed You most.. He never fails to turn up when i call upon Him.. i should not have emphasise on the problems and make it seem bigger.. rather should i focus on the solutions instead.. do learn from my mistakes.. don't keep ponder on problems but rather seek for ways to solve it.. let be faithful and continue to do our parts for our cg.. just as what pastor shared b4, if every members would do their parts, there is no need for any helper.. let not reply on those few ppls to fight 4 our cg, u can make a difference too.. let all of us be a strong fighter for shannon.. ^0^

tired & exhaust

2005-09-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

tired & exhaust

Oops, received complained from my dear reader le.. These past few days was not easy for mi.. both my mental and physical strength have been totally drain up.. i could hardly have any time for my own..

for monday and tuesday, i have been coped up with my final year project.. it realli time consuming.. especially alot of time was wasted on travelling and meeting up with the lecture, which could have been wisely spent on project instead.. -_-""

while on wedmesday, was the most tiring day of all.. basically i was running round the whole of sp lohz.. after my lesson, as usual i went down for my harmonica practice.. after a while, rush over to the drama group to check out on their performance progress for friday mid-autumn festival.. next run to fc4 to fellowship with my fellow sp city harvester mates.. our sp group is growing le.. we got three new friends.. praise teh lord.. hehe.. after fellowship for half an hour, i went over to the singing group to check up on them too.. sometime having too mani group is also a problems lah.. running here and there realli tired mi out.. as though training mi up for my NS like tat.. next time should think of a better ways to combine the three groups together.. save mi the troubles to run here and there..

while on thursday, initally was suppose to go home to studi for my friday lab quiz.. however there was a rehearsal for the friday performance.. as a orgainser, vice-president and friends, i realli can't leave them to fend for themselves while i make my way home.. in the end, stay back with them till around 7pm.. by the time i reach home was already 8 plus le lohz.. was totally exhausted and didn't realli studi much lah.. after some calling up and my quiet time, i lied on my bed and zzZZZ..

finally friday came.. it was the most happening day of my week.. have to hand my emi/emc projects which took mi a few nite to rush it out.. a lab quiz which i hardly studi.. was praying real hard b4 the test.. after a hard day lesson, still have to make my way down for the mid-autumn performance.. i was quite unwilling lah cosz i still have other events awaits mi.. however problems just keep surfacing and i was realli needed over there.. no matter how unwilling i am, i decided to settle my heart and give my best support for my members who performing later on..

the whole event turn out to be a great success.. although there was some problems here and there, it was resolved peacefully.. it was such a great satisfactory to see the old folks enjoying the perfomance tat we put up.. indeed, there was a lot of enjoyment but nothing is greater to than to see our effort paid off.. ^0^
tired as we maybe but the joy still keep us going.. i realli love my chinese language society members.. there a few whom u can realli rely on when times of troubles.. do hope that we can continue to do our best to proposer our club.. in the mean while, do studi hard for the coming exam.. jia you..

Something bout mi

2005-09-03T11:23:00.000+08:00

Something bout mi

Just wish to share with my dear blog reader somethings bout mi.. mani ppls would be wondering y i chosen this blog out of the thousands tat available.. i didn't chose it just out of fun or look interesting.. i just felt tat the blog would reflect part of mi..

first of all, i realli love angels.. there are so cute and sweet.. always dwelling high above or mabe just right beside ur side watching and protecting u.. making sure that u r never alone and doesn't come to any harm.. rejoice with u whenever u r happi and comforting u whenever u felt sorrow.. time & time, u may wonder y u r all alone and there no one to be by ur side.. feeling lost and realli wish to give up on all hope.. HEYs, ur angel is actualli just beside u.. it just tat u never take notice of him/her.. u r fcousing so much of ur worries and problems tat there is no place in ur heart for His love.. it becos He care for us tat y He had place angels around our life to help and encourage us..

be of good cheer whenever u r feeling down and sad.. God had never left ur side.. The Holy Spirit is there to guard ur heart(emotion), angels to meet ur needs(physical) and we can trust in Him at all times.. do not be lure away by the devils tempation, guard ur heart and mind at all time..

back to my topic.. i just wish tat i can be like an angel as well.. watching and protecting my loves one.. making sure tat they will not come to any harm and praying tat joys and happiness always embracing them.. making a difference in the ppls around mi.. what i love bout angels is tat they often do things in secret.. they tend to do this and that but without anyone noticing it expect God alone..

tat y i love to do things without mani ppls noe bout it.. wat the point of letting the whole world noe bout the small little stuff tat u have do.. so long u noe tat what u did had make a difference in the other party, u should be glad bout tat.. i had to admit tat there r time when i chose to isolate myself as well.. hoping tat nobody had notice of mi.. however whenever i do so, it just mean tat i am facing problems or difficulties myself.. no longer able to be an angel toward the ppls around mi.. hiding myself in my secret place where onli God noe..

y am i sick again?

2005-08-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

y am i sick again?

sometime i realli curious bout my body immune system.. nowsaday, i tend to fall sick easily and took mi quite some time to fully recover.. seriously i have no ideas wat wrong with my body??

was realli feeling veri terrible on monday nite and tue morning.. was so sick tat i could barely open my open.. i just felt so weary and tired.. my whole was so weak and and feeling cold now and den.. it was realli a terrible time 4 mi to endure through.. thx God 4 His strength to see mi through..

wish to share with u all wat God had help mi.. on tue morning, we were to fast from 6am to 6pm.. although i feeling veri sick but my hunger of seeing my friends getting saved into God's kingdom realli give mi the strength to endure through.. i realli want God to make a difference in my friends' life..
when i woke up around 10am, my mum had actualli brough mi brunch (breakfast cum lunch) i was like -_-"" ( i am suppose to fast lohz)
she keep asking mi to eat from 10am to 2pm.. den i was like keep on rejecting it and praise the Lord 4 blessing mi with strength and wisdom to overcome this test.. just as the bible say, God never give us trails tat too much 4 ours to bears..

my illness didn't seem to get any better when i reach school 4 my lesson.. most probably becos of the air-con ba.. i was feeling veri cold and tired throughout my class.. i have to admit tat i didn't realli pay attention to wat the lecture was teaching.. my eyes lid was so heavy and fall asleep 4 a few time.. as the prayer meeting time drew near, i was realli struggling whether should i go or not.. cosz my mum had instruced mi to come home eariler to rest.. however, i decided to trust in the Lord and walk by faith despite of my body limation..

the prayer meeting was awesome, mani youth attended the meeting.. young as we may be but we have a heart seeking after God's heart.. wanting to make a difference in our generation.. praise the Lord, i began to felt refresh and throughout the prayer meeting i didn't cough at all.. earlier today, i couldn't even talk much.. but throghout the prayer meeting i just keep on praying and feeling much much better.. indeed, seek first the kingdom of God and everything shall be added upon u.. God never fail to answer our prayer.. i believe tat this coming youth edition will bring our cg to a whole new level.. i going to make a difference too..

Dreams and Visions

2005-08-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Dreams and Visions

woah.. today was realli blessed by Rev Ulf Ekman.. initally, i was veri veri tired and feeling abit sick.. however still make the effort to go 4 extra svc by attending svc 5 as well.. it was realli a life-changing moments 4 mi.. everything was simply awesome, Rev Ulf Ekman never fail to make a different whenever he came to our church.. His words and impartion was a great great blessing to mani..

When svc 5 was about to end, Rev Ulf Ekman say that he going to pray 4 the poly students, i was elated upon hearing that.. i was full of excitment and came b4 the altar with a heart of expectancy.. deep down in my heart, was hoping tat God could use mi and rise mi up to a whole new level.. praying deeply 4 revivial in my cg and campus, seeing my friends and family members getting saved.. when i was still in e queue waiting 4 my turn, can realli experience the strong presence of God.. my whole body was trembling non-stop and i realli mean non-stop lohz, i never experience this b4.. just feel tat my Holy spirit had been stir up and dashing up and down in my body..

once again, when Rev Ulf Ekman lays hand on mi, i saw the dreams that God had planted in mi.. Dreams and visions that wat He had wanted mi to do 4 Him.. true indeed, fears always crip up whenever i wanted to do somethings 4 God.. however i still put my trust in God and take a step of faith, believeing tat He will guide and lead mi.. God has been showing mi visions whenever i seek after Him, telling mi tat now is the time for mi to make a difference.. and yes, i will answer the call and ley ur will be done upon mi..

realli feel His tangible presence throughout svc.. Praise the Lord 4 renewing mi, my physical tiredness just simply vanish when i continue to worship Him.. not only so, the Holy Spirit bring forth verses to encourage mi.. there are times when we give our best but the outcome is not wat we have expected of.. we tend to felt discourage and disappointed.. however God never fails to comfort us and through these tests and trails, God is actualli moulding and preparing us.. tears just flow down as i continue to worship in His presence.. God, let mi lean opon ur understanding and not mine.. for ur ways is always higher than mine..

Birthday celebration

2005-08-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Birthday celebration

Woah.. today after my lesson, mi will be attending my 2nd sp prayer meeting leh.. miss the previous one cosz i was having my lesson at that time.. indeed God is a good God.. last prayer meeting, we pray 4 a place 4 us to meet up reguarly in school 4 prayer meeting.. true indeed, it came true.. this week, we will praying in a classroom where there air-con and chairs.. ahhaha..

we also prepared a small surprise for phileo and joey.. after our prayer meeting, we celebrated their B'day.. phileo sort of guess it but was cover up back by mi.. while joey was realli no ideas tat we wil be doing so.. ahhahaha.. i love to give ppls surprise de.. hope tat the two of u enjoy the small celebration..

after my PM, mi rush down to jurong point to meet up with felicia first.. we were discussing on where to get lynn the B'day cake.. finally we decided to get the cake from billy bomber lah, since it can be served in a plate mehz.. look more apporiate and nicer mehz..

ahahahah.. was so proud of myself sia.. lynn was totally unaware tat today we are celebrating her Birthday loh.. no doubt, there a few time when i realli dunno how to answer her qns.. such as, y r we having our dinner at billy bomber? i was -__-"".. realli dunno how to answer lohz but thank God's for His wisdom to be upon mi.. was able to come up with a reasonable reason to cover it up nicely..

realli enjoy the food at billy bomber lah.. just tat the service abit slow lah.. wonder is it my expectation high or wat.. i waited 5 minutes b4 the cake was served after placing my order lohz.. however, the serving portion was alot lohz.. after the meal, we were bloated.. ahhahah.. lynn, hope tat u enjoy this small celebration from feli & mi.. ^0^

after our small celebration, we make our way our last bible study lesson.. was still in the mood of fun and laughter but when i heard tat after our lesson, there will be a quiz.. fears started to cripple mi and began to felt nervous.. can c the same expressions on lynn & feli.. b4 i began to flip through my book, the word of God hit hard on mi.. PERFECT LOVE CAST OUT ALL FEARS.. onli den i began to settle my heart and give my full attention to BS..

initially was quite worried bout the quiz but as i began to do it.. i found tat just like wat pastor say, if you pay attention through the lesson, it will be a simple quiz.. ahhahaa.. although there still a few qns tat i pounder over, able to answer most of them with ease.. i noe very well tat it not by my understanding but God who guided mi through the paper.. hehe.. ;)

Sick

2005-08-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

Sick

These past few days was realli terrible time for mi to last through.. i was coughing non-stop and keep on sneezeing.. the dustin inside my room without fail sure have lots of tissue paper de lohz.. my illness just seem to get worse as day pass by lohz..

still remember tat on monday nite was the worst nite of all..sleep until half way was wake up by my own cough.. den i was like coughing non-stop.. only after drinking tons of water den it began to feel better.. just when i thought i can back to my sweet dream, my nose started running and sneezeing all the way through e nite.. basically the whole nite, i was running between the kitchen and my room back and forth lohz..

it became so bad tat i even have to stay at home to rest and miss school.. thank God tat tuesday lesson was not realli that "important".. was able to catch up cosz all was lecture nia.. just need to discpline myself to do some self-study den can le.. hehe..

realli wanted to go 4 tonite prayer meeting de however my mum forbid mi to go anywhere.. come to think of it, i miss my school in the morning den at nite wanted to go all the way to boon lay.. she confirm say no de mehz.. no choice lohz, stay at home to recuperate ba.. was feeling much beter after taking my medicine..

was feeling quite guilty cosz i didn't realli study much due to my sickness.. therefore decided to use the rest of my remaining time to catch up on my projects.. feel quite bad tat my team members are covering up my parts.. hope tat the prayer meeting will be great and awesome.. new dreams and visions will be imparted upon u all.. mi will also pray together with u all but just tat i will be at home nia.. oops.. ;)

God's strength

2005-08-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

God's strength

when i wake up in the morning, i just felt so weak.. head was spinning and as if my whole room was spinning like tat.. i noe veri well tat i am going to fall sick soon.. as a result, i had to take leave from my minstry cosz i can't stay in air-condition place for long period of time.. miss my children church kids.. ;_;

Den i realise tat today i will be working as well le.. initally was realli unwilling to go down 4 my work cosz was feeling quite badly.. however, i was unable to find any replacement since it was a last minutes stuff.. in addition, it doesn't reflect veri well to ur employer tat u r not coming 4 work after working 4 a few weeks nia.. In the end, i cruicfy my flesh and pray to God 4 strength and healing b4 making my way to work..

Praise the Lord, i manage to last through my work in one piece.. thx God's for His strength & grace.. was feeling veri terrible when i got home.. most probably becosz i was exposed under the big hot sun.. quickly went 4 a quick nap.. zzZZZ

Ct & Net B'day celebration

2005-08-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

Ct & Net B'day celebration

ahhahah.. as usual, my friday is fullly packed with lessons but praise the Lord tat i still able to find some time out to help out in the cg.. thank God tat my lesson ended eariler and able to meet up with lynn and sorfian to help carrying the whole lots of food to shannon jie's house..

ahhaha.. today we were going to celebrate chow tee and nethanel B'day.. i suppose both of them noe it long ago.. no fun de, i try so hard to keep it as a surprise but they were expecting 4 the celebration le.. next time cannot make it so obvious le..

had a great time fellowshipping and net as usual, never fails to make us laugh.. today even more super hyper sia, does alot silly action.. oh ya, hope the both of u like the presents.. although it wasn't choosen by mi.. ahhahha..

did i ever mention to u all tat i began to love my phone more and more le.. it contains lot of pics and songs tat i love.. initially i just bought it without much consideration but now i begin to realise its usefullness le.. it realli benefit mi alot.. hehee.. ;)

Blessing

2005-08-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

Blessing

dear ppls, i would like to share with u all wat God had bless in my life.. 2 days ago i just give my tithe to God and praise the Lord, i receive my blessing from my mum & beloved sis.. indeed, seek first the kingdom of God and all things shall be added to you..

first of all, i have to correct my mistake, my new billabong bag is actualli my belated B'day from my sis.. however, it does cost a bomb to them.. i am not expecting something so expensive from them but by God's grace, all things r possibe..

not forgeting to mention tat my mum had brough mi a new t-shirt.. ahhaha.. simply love tat shirt design and the clothes material was veri comfortable.. hehe.. my sis was feeling abit jealous lah cosz i always bless with new clothes and other stuff.. however i noe veri well tat, it is God who provided all these things for mi.. thank you heavenly papa 4 all the blessing and grace tat u shower upon mi.. ^0^

Greatly Blessed

2005-08-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

Greatly Blessed

True indeed, sunday is always a life-changing day 4 mi.. no matter wat sorrow, unhappiness, burden, grief, troubles, problems i may have.. God will lift them all up into His loving hand.. thank God 4 His mercy and love.. whenever i enter into worship and praise, i just simply find joy and happiness in Him.. ^0^

Today realli bless by wat pst Kong preach.. although it just a short sermon but indeed a powerful and anointed one..

Wat is WORSHIP?

#1. Worship is WAITING upon God
#2. Worship is UNDISTRACTED FOCUS on God
#3. Worship is EXTRAVANGENT ADORATION on God
#4. Worship is UNCONDITIONAL SACRIFICE to God

Worship is not just a religious routine tat u do for the sake of doing.. it is a hunger tat u want and ask for more of God's presence.. entering into His Presence to seek after His heart..

you are telling to God tat i willing to put u first above every things in my life.. wait patiently for His presence to fall upon u, entwining urself around God's presence.. finding joy and peace in His Most High.. for the Lord say, only true worshipper worship Him in Spirit and in Truth..

Every nite, i will seek after Him by worshipping and giving thank 4 all things tat He had done in my life.. be it the little stuff or the great blessing tat He has bless in my life.. i just simply love to dwell in His presence.. time will just simply passed when u truly seek after Him.. the most amazing things is tat sometime i will feel even more afresh after seeking Him..

i felt tat my mind was renew and my physical tiredness just simply faded away.. i will den either play my guitar and make a joyful noise to the Lord (cannot too loud if not will wake up my parents >.<) or enter into the word of God.. everytime when i read the word of God, i will find new revelation and thus building up my faith and trust in the Lord.. word of knowledge, encouragement just simply flow into my mind.. telling mi to hold on strong and firm in the Lord.. u will never felt dry when reading the word if u truthly seek after His presence first..

Just before i went into my quiet time on sunday nite, i received a call from arthur (pos mate aka sp student ic).. we had a great time talking to one another, realli learnt alot from him.. his word blessed mi and give mi the courage to realli take a step of boldness and faith toward my dream and vision..

actualli since the reopening of school, a group of sp students have been meeting up to pray 4 the great revival in our campus.. young as we may be, our hunger and burden 4 the lost souls realli keep each of us going.. despite of our busy schedule, we will still try our best to meet up to discuss and plan wat we can do for our campus.. we realli have the urge and hunger to see things happen in our campus..

despite we have over 70 plus sp city harvester, we hardly noe one another.. during our first prayer meeting, onli 10 plus ppls turn up and mostly was pos mates.. somehow i was abit discourage by the attendance but i believe tat they must have their reasons 4 not able to turn up de.. since we still do not noe each others very well yet, we decided to strengthen our current bonds with one another b4 reaching out to our market place..

bro arthur has realli taught mi alot along the way.. initially fear cripple mi when he told mi wat i have been given with.. i was at a total lost and realli afraid tat i not able to do a good jobs.. this is something tat i never imagine of, however God always move in a mighy way..

His word of encuragement realli build up my faith once again.. an overcomer is not someone who never fail but someone who never give up.. he also added tat, why do we need faith if we can do the things in the first place.. we need faith because we noe tat through our own strength, we will not make it.. however with God, we can do all things through Him who strengthen us..

fears and doubts will surely come along the way to destroy ur dreams and visions.. for the devil come to kill, steal and destroy.. however prefect love cast out all fears.. therfore, we should always think on the solutions when problems arise not magnifing the problems instead..

to be frank, now i am feeling nervous and excited at the same time.. this is the first time tat i am given such a big tasks.. to all ppls who read my blog, pls realli pray 4 mi.. i realli have alot to learnt but i will continue to trust in the Lord.. ;)

CCH membership card

2005-08-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

CCH membership card

wake up early in the morning to get myself prepare 4 my job.. ahhaha, did i ever mention to u all tat actualli i have been working 4 the past 2 week le.. today will be my third day of work.. mi currently work as giving our flyer.. although i wasn't realli earning alot but anyway it helps to meet some of my needs.. hehe.. thx zheng hong and lynn 4 tat.. ;)

last week, we were sort of "complain" by our boss as the business wasn't as good as the week b4.. den we smile at each others and noe in our heart tat we have chatted too much le.. ahhaha.. last week, we realli have a heart to heart chat lah.. we were making full use of our time, chatting and giving flyer at the same time.. multitask sia, who say guy not good at multi-tasking de? hehe..

therefore to make up 4 last week, we realli give our best.. despite of our regular camping place, we conquer into new territory and even give the flyer while we walk from places to places.. after 2 hours of hardwork, we decided to give ourself a small break by getting some food & drinks.. we were so so thristy and hungry lohz..

after my work, mi quickly fly down to church to serve in childen church.. ahhaha, i simply love serving in the house of the Lord.. my tiredness would just simply faded away and felt refresh once again.. joy of the Lord never fail to fall upon mi as i commit myself more and more to the minstry..

today was sort of got sabo by the children lah.. during games time, i was asked to be the model 4 the girls team to style my hair using mosses.. initially, i still think tat it should be an easy task.. sit down there and will get a new hair style le, y not?? somemore it is done by girls wat, they should be pro in this area de mehz, most of them should have play barbie doll b4 de mehz..

however this was not the case lohz.. of the girl just keep pouring the whole bottle of mosses onto my hair.. while the other two was having a great time playing with the mosses.. at the end of day, i was like a person who bath until half way den run out of water, with my hair cover with shampon.. was quite disappointed with the outcome but upon seeing the joy and laughter from all the kids.. all i could do was to join in their laughter and bring the excitement to another great level by doing a few more silly action.. had a wonderful with all the kids.. hehe.. ^o^

oh ya, after waiting 4 such a long time.. mi finally get hold of my children church pass le.. got my pic on the pass le.. love it so much.. ahhahah.. those who wan to c, i can show it to u all de.. hehe, will take good care of my pass de.. ;)

Festival of Praise

2005-08-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

Festival of Praise

Praise the Lord.. Festival of Praise (FOP) realli bring mi to another great height.. Presence of God was moving mightly throughout the whole singapore indoor stadium.. we were praising God like never b4, bringing the whole kingdom down from heaven.. HooHoo.. i believe tat angels above were singing and dancing with us too.. ;)

this was my first time attending the FOP, was greatly blessed by it.. hundreds and thousands of ppls was queueing up as early as 2 to 3pm when the FOP starts at 7.30pm.. God is truly doing a great change in singapore.. His children were all full of hunger and came with a heart of expectancy.. everyone was thirsting and hungry 4 more of His presence.. Lord, continue to transform us into ur likeness..

little did i realise tat there r actualli so mani churches around singapore.. 120 churches come together 4 this FOP.. it was truly a memorable event.. let continues to believe and trust in the Lord tat all our friends and family will be saved into His kingdom..

Thank You

2005-08-05T12:30:00.000+08:00

Thank You

A simple but sincere word tat came from the bottom of my heart.. realli thank God 4 the strength, favour from man and last but not least, HIS overflowing mercy and grace..

for the past few days, i was realli having a real real bad time.. was struggling to cope with my exams (2-5 of aug) and was deeply hurt by the words of my best friend.. seriously, i had no ideas wat had cause such a great change in him.. it seem as though tat we r like two diff world ppls.. for once, we were close as though blood-related bro.. now, we were as though stranger, i couldn't understand him anymore..

on 30th & 31 of aug, i was overwhelmed with sorrow.. i try my best not to take it to heart wat he say said.. however, those word just simly hover around my mind.. on sunday, i came to God's house with a shatter heart and decided to praise Him with all i have.. true enough, while i was worshipping God, presence of Holy Spirit fall upon mi and comfort my broken heart.. tears just simply flow non-stop.. thank God 4 ur abundance out-pouring Love 4 ur children..

although i found comfort in God's presence, i still unable to get rid of the negative thoughts instantly.. it take time for mi to heal and forget.. however time was not on my side, i have to quickly settle down my feelings to prepare 4 the coming exams..

pressure and stress started to accumulate and was a heavy burden upon mi.. Hereby. i wish to thank LYNN 4 appearing at the right moment 4 mi.. thank God 4 planting such a great sis in my cg.. although she wasn't awared of wat i am going through but her word of encouragement just pumped mi up to stay focus in my studies.. since den the negative thought no longer hover in my mind.. it just simply vanish into thin air.. praise the Lord.. not forgetting, to thank her 4 praying 4 mi throughout my exam period.. THANK 4 UR CARE & CONCERN.. ^0^

on wed, lynn and mi went popular to get materials for SHANNON JIE B'day card.. took quite a long time as we keep on improving on the ideas tat we initally had.. our creativity just exploded like never b4.. new ideas just keep flowing into our mind.. praise the Lord 4 we serve a creative God.. felicia was suppose to meet up with us but she promise yvonne first so this time round, she is excused lah.. after all the buying, eating, playing, we went 4 our Foundation Truth 2 BS..

was realli blessed by the word of God.. it was on wat the Holy Spirit produced in us.. although the lesson was abit difficult to understand, it still draw mi closer to noe God more.. hehe..

oh ya, get to noe this new bro by the name of kynneth who was lynn's friend.. if i still remember correctly, he was from N250.. currently serving in NS and graduated from SP.. he is my senior sia.. wat a small world.. as 10pm was apporaching, the four of us enter into God's presence and started praying fervently 4 the coming 16th anniversary.. presence of God was so tangible and Holy Spirit bring forth a new vision in my mind.. this time round, i wil hold strong to my vision and let it come to pass de..

THE INTERVIEW WITH GOD

2005-08-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

THE INTERVIEW WITH GOD

i came across this article at guitar4christ.. it really encourage mi.. so i sharing with u all and hope it will help u all too.. ;)

I dreamt that I had an interview with God.
"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.
"If you have the time" I said.
God smiled. "My time is eternity."

"What questions do you have in mind for me?"

"What surprises you most about humankind?"

God answered...
"That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again."

"That they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health."

"That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future."

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived."

God’s hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons
you want your children to learn?"

"To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved."

"To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others."

"To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness."

"To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them."

"To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least."

"To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings."

"To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently."

"To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."
"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here... always."

Passport

2005-07-28T17:01:00.000+08:00

Passport

ahahha, today my mum accompany mi to do my passport.. i was always complaining tat i don't have the time to go and do my passport.. today, my mum "force" mi to get out my bed and "urge" mi to get my passport done no mattter wat..

i was so unwilling to get out of my bed as i slept veri late the previous nite.. when my mum was shouting across the room to wake mi up, i answer back tat i am awake den fall back to zzZZZ again.. it was after 15 minutes time tat i finally crucify my flesh to get out of my comfort bed.. >.<

after making the neccessary arrangement, we set off to get my passport done.. praise the Lord tat there isn't alot of ppls around.. everything was completed in less than half an hour time.. hmmm, how come when taking nric or passport photo, u cannot smile huh?? seem as though i was so unwilling to take the photo like tat..

CLS Chalet

2005-07-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

CLS Chalet

after such a long long waiting, we finally had our annual camp on monday & tuesday.. initially, i was expecting alot of first year freshmen to attend the camp.. however i was quite discourage by the number of ppls tat came lah.. is our outing realli tat unattractive??

next i would touch on the chalet.. the place was veri big.. although not as big and grand as the changi chalet lah.. it was conisder quite a nice and smoothing place lah.. just tat there r alot of unwanted pest whirling around the place..

seldom do we had the chance for 3 diff group gathering together to chat and have fun.. although all of us belong to CLS but are sub-divided into harmonica, singing and drama.. due to our diff time slot, pratically each group onli mix around themselves.. little did we have the luxury 4 3 diff groups to meet up.. this chalet realli draw our relationship closer with one another..

Children Church Arise & Build Day

2005-07-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

Children Church Arise & Build Day

As usual, wanted to wake up 4 a saturday morning jog but was overslept once again.. no matter must realli crucify my flesh and start training up 4 army le.. cannot slack so much le.. if ZH can do den mi also can do it de.. ahahaha

wanted to share something with u all, i was tremendous bless by Zheng Hong blog.. the articles tat he posted realli change my point of thinking.. do read up his blog if u have the time.. no doubt i realli enjoy reading his blog.. hmmm, off course not forgeting bout the rest of my friends lah.. just tat somehow i was realli encourage by his blog.. dunno how to describle either, just take a look urself lah.. hehe..

oh ya, went to serve children church with a joyful and exciting feeling.. however today is a veri special cosz it children church arise and build. the children are bringing their first fruit to the Lord, giving their veri best to build Him a great& awesome house.. was veri touch by wat the kid did.. some of them even bring their peggy bank to the Lord.. just like wat i have mention in my previous blog.. young as we may be but we want to follow ur way.. giving all tat we have in exchange 4 u..

Sp Prayer Meeting

2005-07-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Sp Prayer Meeting

Woah.. today wake up with a heart full of expectancy.. realli can't wait tat school would end ealier cosz we r having our first prayer meeting 4 this new school semester.. God is going to to a great miracle in SP campus.. every lost soul heart wil be saved in the name of the Lord.. ^0^

after lesson quickly rush down to jurong east library to meet up with soulkeeper, phileo, yie ping and sing yee (Pos mates).. they were supposely to studi but upon my arrival, phileo was sleeping soundly.. jason was expecting my arrival onli yie ping and sing yee mugging hard 4 their tests.. aiyo, how come bro so slack sia.. ooPs, hope tat i not like tat too.. chat 4 a while den we went down to church to meet up with the rest of SP chc members..

though there were not alot of us who attend the prayer meeting due to lessons and attachement, the presence of God still came among us.. stir up each and everyone of us, giving us a new dream and vision.
Lord, young as we may be but we want to make a different in the ppls around us.. seeing the lost souls saved in ur names.. proclaming ur goodness to all the ppls..

Ahhaha, we r going to set up a new club to help mentoring the year 1 junior to get to noe sp better and building up relationship at the same time.. if this cca realli approve by sp, i believe great revival in SP campus is just a matter of time.. ;)

after our prayer meeting, thsoe who can stay gather in church cafe and had a great fellwoship.. we were sharing our testimonial and playing guitar.. as though it is a mini cg meeting.. hehe..

while having fun and enjoying myself, was also waiting 4 lynn & feli to arrive 4 our BS.. woah, in a blink of an eye, we r already in lesson 5 le.. hehe.. was veri bless by the word of God and thirsting 4 more of His presence.. presenc of God was pouring throughout the lesson, able to feel His tangible feeling.. Thx God..

Cousin 25th B'day Celebration

2005-07-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

Cousin B'day Celebration

Ahhaha.. ever since i get saved, my relationship with my cousin has been getting closer & closer.. we would tend to share our problems and difficulties with one another.. edifying one another to stay strong in the Lord and never give up on any obstacles tat came along our way..

after my school, went to met up with my dear cousin at dover mrt station b4 making our way to raffle place.. it was stil early b4 our meeting time with his friends so we went to catch a bite at coffee and toast.. it was quite a nice place, just tat there too mani ppls nia.. the kaya and butter toast taste great.. hehe..

after meeting up with his friends, we took a long and slow stroll to a place called vil'age.. although the location was abit inaccessible, it's decoration was awesome.. not forgetting to mention tat the food was nice too.. was spending a wonderful evening eating and chatting around.. last but not least, we took mani mani pics.. ahhaha.. ^o^

Arise and Build

2005-07-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

Arise and Build

Once again, today shall be my point of changing life.. everyone of us come with a different heart of expectancy.. No doubt i would say tat it going to be tough and not an easy one.. however when we slay down this Big giant tat stand in our life.. i believe tat everyone of us will never be the same again.. ;)

Time and time again, we would seek after God and wanting more and more of His presence.. however when God show us a sign or vision, most of us would either freak out or "bargain" with God.. saying it can't be mi or having such a small faith and doubting God abilty in our life.. Mani time when asking for blessing, we would say "HERE I AM" but when a task is given, we would say "GOD SENT HIM INSTEAD" isn't tat ironically?

To be frank, i am a person tat worried alot.. most of the time, thinking would be quite negative too.. however each time when the things seem so impossible, i just simply by faith put it into the Lord's hand.. For whatever impossible for man, it is always possible for God.. For the Lord's way is always higher and greater than our.. God is not a unreasonable God but just tat HE is beyond reason.. i believe greatly tat as i given my PRECIOUS to the LORD, i would receive not 30 fold, not 60 fold but a 100 fold back in return..

After my long long speech, back to the topic.. early in the morning, went to meet up with justin to attend service 4 as he got ncc practice in the afternoon.. praise the LORD, jia ying joined us 4 the service too.. it seem tat Lord is slowly touching and making a different in her heart.. let all of us continue to make a diff in the harvest.. especially our family salvation as wat pst Tan had preach on the 3 overnite prayer meeting.. For one is saved in the household, the whole household will be saved.. (quoted from Lynn blog)

oh ya after service 4, went to jurong point together with jia ying and meet up with felicia.. den feli say wanted to grab something to eat so we went to mac to eat.. was chatting and joking throughout the meal.. ahhhaha..

after sending jia ying off, both of us went back to church and start queueing up at the side long stairs.. woah, it was so so long sia.. saw pierson and bernard and had a chat with them.. later on lynn and jessica joined us in the queueing.. jessica was playing with my phone and took alot of pics. (most of them are fun shots)

After service went 4 a short fellowship b4 making our way home.. while waiting 4 bus, saw w300 members walk and started taking photo and chatting with them.. love my new phone, took alot of pics with it.. hehe.. ;)

Joyce B'day

2005-07-12T17:35:00.000+08:00

Happi Birthday to Joyce Jie

Hereby wish joyce jie a big big happi birthday.. may all ur WISHES come true and hope tat u continue to soar high in the LOrd.. hehe.. ;)

last nite went down to marnia square to celebrate joyce jie B'day.. shannon jie, bro wei boon, ken, lynn, felicia, bernard, justin, brendon and mi was there.. joel joined us 4 dinner b4 making his way to meet up with his friends.. woah, so mani ppls was there to celebrate ur B'day.. Aren't u touched? ahhaha..

after dinner, we went to catch fansatic 4.. it was quite nice especially a few of the scence were veri funni.. had a good laughting nite.. hehe.. later on went around taking pic b4 making our way back home.. A enjoyable nite i would say.. ;)

Overnite prayer meeting

2005-07-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

Overnite prayer meeting

woah.. yest was the second nite overnite prayer metting tat i attend.. nevertheless, it was awesome and wonderful.. could realli felt the persence of GOD moving throughout the prayer meeting.. everyone of us was tremendously bless by it..

young as we may be but we realli wish to make a diff in our generation.. building a great house 4 u and our future generation.. continue to reach out to the harvest field believing tat the lost soul wil eventurally get saved into ur kingdom.. proclaiming ur goodness and spreading gospel throughout the nation..

wonderful blessing

2005-07-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Wonderful Blessing

woah.. today after school quickly rush home to ba a good boy cosz i was suppose to receive my blessing today.. waited 4 it since 4 plus until my dad came home.. when i receive my dad's call, i was so happi..

we went down to compass point to get my stuff.. it has been sometime since mi went out with my dad & mum le.. although this time round was basically to get my "stuff" but still conisder a trip out with them mehz..

finally at 8 plus, i get my hand on the stuff tat i wanted le.. although it cost more than wat i expected and i didn't bring enough money out.. thank God 4 such a wonderful parent tat i have.. each of them bless mi with $100 dollar each to get my stuff.. ahhahah.. i love my stuff so much..

this time round i will not leak it out until cg testi.. sorfian, i remember it le.. i will keep it till friday cg de.. ahahaha.. blessing after blessing.. God is a good God.. must start to prepare myself for the coming ARISE & BUILD le.. hehe.. more blessing going to come along my way.. ^0^

Celebrate serene's B'day

2005-07-03T12:29:00.000+08:00

Celebrate serene's B'day

sorry dear reader.. was too busy and unable to update u guys.. oh ya, today after service went down to town to celebrate serene belated B'day which is suppose on 28th of june..

although it was abit late lah.. however it the though tat count anyway.. joa, chow tee, jason aka soulkeeper, serene and mi went 4 the celebration.. we suppose to keep it as a secret but soulkeeper let the cat out of the bag.. aiyo, so fast let her noe, no fun le..

we went to cafe catlea to have our dinner.. mi was already veri full after the fellowship but cannot be a spoilt sport.. try my best to squeue somemore food down.. i was bloated after the meal.. the seafood platter was not bad but due to my sore throat, i went to order pasta instead.. sob sob ;_;

oh ya, not forgetting tat chow tee and mi went all the way to POLAR at the end of city link to get serene B'day cake.. the cake was quite delicious, at least it worth the effort to run all the way there.. when i went back 4 my meal, i was sweating non-stop as if i had run 2.4km.. aahhaa.. it was quite fun lah but the chances of coming together to have fun will be slim when ARISE & BUILD start..

Mum back from taiwan

2005-06-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

Mum back from taiwan

Ahhahah.. my mum is finally back from her taiwan trip le.. she brough back alot of stuff lah but just didn't get those tat i want.. ;_; she got a shirt 4 mi but soemhow my head can't squeue through it le.. in the end, can't wear.. still thinking of wat to do with tat shirt?? hmmm..

while my two sis got mi a billabond cap.. it look cool and nice but i seldom wear cap one le.. cosz if i wear it, my hair style will be destroy by it le.. therefore i onli left it at home and treat it as a ornament to my room.. although abit wasted but it help to enhance my room lah.. ahhahaha.. ;)

b4 they went to taiwan, i keep on remembering them bout mi wanting a slingbag and a pair of track pant.. den in the end, they didn't get wat i want at all.. if i noe tat, i would have went to taiwan with my mum instead of giving this chance to my sisters.. anymore, the cap and shirt is still a form of blessing to mi lah.. something tat i never expected of..

Hereby, i realli wish to thank someone from the deepest of my heart.. tat is none other than my BELOVED DAD.. during the vacation period, my dad realli took great care of mi.. the love tat he had shown is beyond description..

whenever my lesson is in the after, he would took the trouble to buy breakfast for mi and bring back home b4 leaving again 4 his work.. while at nite, he would do all the housework despite a hard day work.. sometime he would even call back home to make sure tat i didn't overslept 4 my afternoon lesson.. although all these may seem to be small little stuff but it show how much he care for mi..

i still remember tat on FATHER DAY, i had a cell group chalet so i celebrate it beforehand on sat.. although it just a cake tat i get 4 him but i can still see the joy tat on his face.. sometime it the small and little things tat make the different.. i love u dad..

First harmonica training

2005-06-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

First harmonica training

After taking a long break from my harmonica training, i was expecting something better 4 this coming new term.. however the first lesson was to teach all the freshman the basic.. although i was not the leader but also need to help the rest of the freshmen to hold and blow the harmonica in the right way..

initially i thought that it would be a simple and easy job but it wasn't so.. the freshmen keep coming in at different timne slot.. i have to teach the same things over & over again.. it was simply so tiring.. hope tat next week training would be as tiring as this week..

somehow dunno what wrong, all of them say tat i abit stress up.. mi also felt so but just dunno wat wrong with mi.. it is becosz of the training or wat.. -___-"
haiz ya, don't realli wish to care or think bout it le.. i just want to simply enjoy my harmonica..

Cell Group Chalet

2005-06-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

Cell Group Chalet

Woah.. once again we have our cell group chalet near changi beach village.. it was so so BIG.. we could even play catching inside tat house.. nice place, i would say.. ;)

We had a great nite tat day.. the food was great man.. most of the food was cook by our "chefs": Sorfian & Xuan Yu.. Thx thx.. Although the two of u eat most of the food too.. ahahaha..

Not forgeting tat joa & bernard took the trouble to come down and join us too.. hope tat u two have fun too.. just tat poor bernard didn't get to eat much of the BBQ food cosz he came at quite a late hour..

After our BBQ, de ze, yvonne, wan ping and justin made a move first while the rest of us stay back to continue to have fun.. tat nite was so happening sia, all the guys stay in one room while the sisters in another.. we play alot of stupid games and chat till quite late.. most of us stay up till 3.30am b4 realli knock out..

i realli admire sorfian, shun ping and xuan yu.. they stay up till 6am and didn't sleep at all.. >.<
especially sorfian who went to school straight after tat.. if i were him, i would have zzZZZ.. Ahhaha..

Movie

2005-06-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Movie

Today after school, went down to orchard to meet up with Sorfian, Lynn and Sharon 4 show.. actualli we meeting at 5pm but all of us reach quite early except 4 one and tat is noe other than our lynn.. she always so blur one, actualli we get used to it le lah.. oopS ;P

To my biggest surprise is tat we r actalli catching the show at Plaza Singapura.. actualli mi still thinking tat the journey would be quite long de but on the way we were chating this and that.. time pass so fast, b4 we realise, we hava alreadi reach PS le.. not bad lah, mi long time never exercise le, can talk this chance to cut down some of my fat.. ahahha.. ;)

oh ya, forget to mention wat show we watch.. we went to catch the Mr & Mrs Smith.. the show was quite nice.. i would rate it as a four star show.. in the begining, it was veri funni and crappy.. middle was veri romantic and touching.. especialli the part where both of them love each other so much but were forced to kill each other..

somehow i felt tat human beings are quite foolish.. they noe tat they love each others but becosz of some misunderstanding, they almost kill their love one.. if they were to sit down and talk things out, i believe all the misunderstanding could have been resolve..

Mrs smith say tat "Happi ending never exist, it onli the beginging of story".. somehow i agree to tat cosz happii ending is the begining of happi story mehz.. So do make full use of ur time to make the best of everything.. make every single second of ur life count.. >.<

Today realli enjoy the time tat spent with them.. although it maybe just a few hours but mi have lot of fun.. now den i realise tat gals actualli love ice-cream so much.. lynn and sharon was so happi when they eating the ice-cream.. hope tat u all have fun too.. TC!

Freshmen Orientation

2005-06-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Freshmen Orientation

Actually was realli having a hard time with my orientation.. cosz supposeli should be someone else in charge but she encounter with some problems so i decided to take over.. mi onli has a week of time to get it done so it was very rush 4 mi..

when the proposal was finally done and sent in 4 apporval den did i realise tat the proposal actualli need to sent in a month beforehand.. i was -_-""
i keep praying hard tat the proposal would be accepted cosz the orientation has been heldback 4 quite some time le.. i can't afford to postphone it anymore le..

Praise the Lord.. after my persistent and prayer, the proposal was finally apporve and all of the club members was so shock.. Cosz it is impossible tat the proposal could be approve and everything just simply work out in one day.. Thank God..
they may not understand but i noe veri well tat it u who made the impossible, possible.. ^.^

The orientation turn out to be a great success.. although there were some problems here and there but in the end, everything just turn out fine.. it was realli a tiring day cosz we play the treasure hunt game.. basically i was running around the whole school with the freshmen looking 4 "treasure".. we turn out to be the first.. ahahha.. ;)

Realli thank everyone 4 coming together to make this orientation a great success.. thx guys.. let continue to work hand in hand to restore Chinese Language Society glory.. i believe we can do it so long each of us give our best.. Jia You..

Service is Great

2005-06-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

Service is Great

first of all, hereby apologise to peiwen jie 4 not able to celebrate B'day with u.. paisei paisei, i got other things to c to so can't help it lah.. hope tat u have fun and enjoy urself.. ;)

today was realli a wonderful and great day 4 mi.. around 1am plus, i just suddenly felt so hungry to enter into God's presence to seek HIM more.. i started praying and began to find joy and peace in HIM.. the feeling was simply wonderful and great.. Actually wanted to play some music to God but den realise i have lent my guitar to ken le so i could only sing a love song to HIM.. Although my singing may not be tat nice but i noe tat it will be a SWEET SOUND to God..

Praise the Lord.. God indeed is a good God.. today we got a few new friends joining us 4 service.. i believe tat next week will be even better and great, there going to be GREAT REVIVAL in my cg le.. let continue to pray 4 our friends salvation and believe tat God will touch their heart.. Let not give up on any of them 4 jesus didn't give up on us either.. let all do our best to bring them back again & again.. ^0^

Mi got testi to share le.. can't wait tat cg will be here rite away.. shannon will be going overboard 4 hoilday.. WoooH.. hope tat u will have a great trip over there.. may God's protection be upon u and remember to enjoy urself.. Ahhaha..

oh ya, CT remember to take care of urself hor.. if u dare to attend service with an empty stomach again, u r going to get a BIG BIG scolding from mi hor.. who ask u to act tough, got gastric le.. don't do tat again hor.. >.<

Emerge First Nite & POS

2005-06-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

Emerge First Nite & POS

YIPPE.. Mi super super happi.. All our hardworks tat we had put in 4 the past one months plus has finally paid off le.. all of us was rejoicing and enjoying our 2005 EXTRAORDINARY EMERGE.. The presence of GOD was simply awesome.. especially the worship, my tears just simply flow out, simply Love God with all my heart..

actually 4 last week, mi was feeling veri veri down and sad.. i was totally overwhelmed with sorrow and grief.. it seem tat none of my close friends is able to understand how i felt.. so mi was realli crying to the Lord 4 helps.. praying 4 strength to bear and overcome this trail cosz those r ppls whom i though they wil stay by my side when i need them most..

Praise the Lord tat He give mi a relevation when i flip through my bible..
1 cor 13:4-7 => Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evils; does not rejoice in iniquity but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things..

the last verse realli open up my mind.. love bears, believes, hopes and endures all things.. the Lord is telling mi tat ray, this is another test tat i set b4 u to train and mould u.. do not be discourage 4 i am with u.. my eyes was filled with tears, almost burst into crying.. THX God 4 showing mercy to ur children.. it realli give mi the confidence and strength to give my best shot 4 POS..

little did i realise tat emerge is so so much FUN.. we meet around 4pm in church and started our own "SALOON", we started to style each other's hair and spray SILVER colour on it.. the silver seem more like white lohz, at the end of day, all SP bro became old man le.. Ahhahha.. Mi also lah.. >_<

This year POS was awesome.. every cluster realli give their best.. be it the dance, stunt and cheer.. like wat the Pastor say, all of us r not professional.. However the strong desire to see great revival in our campus, realli pull us together to perform and glorify GOd.. Alot of ppls may think tat the first, second and third position is veri important and y they training so hard for..

however i felt tat it the BONDS tat we had build up alone the way tat is even more important den winning in the competition.. I simply love my POS mates especially my tower ppls, John, Joey and Sherman.. ^0^

oh ya, was looking up and down 4 my cg mates to take photos with them.. saw ken but he was busy taking photo with his JC mates so better don't disturb him lah.. actually mi wanted to take a photo of two old man pic de.. hehe..

As 4 lynn, totally MIA le.. didn't saw her at all, had she master the ninja invisble skills?? was looking up and down but didn't manage to find her lah.. wanted to take pics with u de but miss the chance.. sob sob.. wanted to see how u were like with ur thick makeup on ur face de.. ahahaha.. BTW, JC performance was veri veri nice.. GREAT JOB.. ;)

Actually also cannot find felica de but on my way down to lobby, happen to saw her coming out from washroom.. so manage to get a pic with her.. white hair (ray) & red hair (feli), this is so funni.. the sad things is i didn't get to see NP perform so dunno how to comment bout u but i believe it should be a great one too.. hehe :-)

Last but not least, hope tat our cg members got saw us performing hor.. although we may just be on the stage 4 around 3 minutes but it seem as though we had run 2.4km.. the energy tat we put in is alot hor.. don't think tat is veri easy.. still hope tat u all will love it lah.. >__<

Pei Wen B'day

2005-06-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

PEI WEN Happi Birthday

today was pei wen B'day.. hope tat u will love the present tat we brough 4 u.. although i haven't even get the chance to c it.. Mi only chip in money nia, however i trust in thier taste lah.. ahhhaha.. hope tat today u will have a great time and have lot of fun.. hehe.. ^0^

today was feeling veri tired and having a bad headache when i woke up.. was in a bad mood lah.. simply just wish to cut myself from all my surrounding stuff, wanted to have a moments of peace.. when one of my cca members called mi, i didn't even bother to listen to his call.. for i noe very well tat, it nothing but troubles, don't wish to lose my temper over it..

for the past few days, was busy with my cca stuff.. helping out at the booth and also making committment to POS training.. As a result, i have miss out mani of my lessons le.. although this may just be the first week but tat doesn't give mi the excuses for not turning up 4 lessons.. was realli frustrated over it lah..

Priority

2005-06-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Priority

Woah.. these few days was quite tiring and Xiong for mi.. was busy handling my cca booth cosz it the cca week mehz.. Squeezeing time 4 lesson, Cca and Pos training.. was hoping tat there would be a few more MI.. everything need mi to c to and handle personally.. realli have a hard time choosing wat which needed my attention most.. it realli tough making decisions especially all seem so important to mi..

Today was our pos 2nd rehearsal viewing.. everyone was having intense training from 12 to 6pm.. however some of us was having lesson so could onli join in at 3pm.. everyone was giving their best but there were too mani changes and as a result today viewing wasn't realli a good one.. how i wish we would have more time to come together to practice on our new changes.. today viewing was too rush le..

Somehow i was feeling quite down bout wat lynn had said to mi.. today we were suppose to have our BS in church at 7.30.. however at tat time the POS rehearsal had not ended yet.. i was realli in a dilema of which should i go to..

???????????????????? POS OR BS ??????????????????????

after much struggling and unwillingness, i decided to stay after SP performance b4 making my way to BS.. although i noe tat this wasn't a veri good or apporiate decsion cosz somehow i have chosen to put POS above BS.. however i do have my reasons for doing so..

u may not understand why i did so cosz feli and u have left pos rehearsal for BS.. why can't i just did the same?? i believe tat is wat u realli wanted to noe.. just now, i didn't explain to u rite away cosz i fear tat we may end up in fierce arugment.. believe in mi, if i have a choice, i would have left with u all but seriously i can't..

Tiring but Meaning Day

2005-05-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tiring But Meaning Day

Early in the morning, woke up around 7.30am and quickly rush down to school for POS traning.. was drilling on our steps, sequences and cordination.. around 11.45, quickly went for a short bath b4 making my way to cell group..

reach sis shannon's hus around 12.30 and had my lunch there.. Ahhaha, when i arrive shannon was giving BS to ken, sorfain and chow tee.. it was interesting to watch them having BS cosz i also can recap wat i have learnt mehz.. hehe..

today cg topic was COMMITMENT TO CHURCH VISION..
1. Membership Commitment
2. Friendship Commitment
3. Ministry Commitment
4. Mission Commitment

was realli excited bout the coming building fund and emerge.. able to see great revival in our cg soon.. the time has come, it our turn to experience the great revival once again.. let all of us move in one spirit and one mind..

After cg, i quickly rush off to Boon lay to meet up with my cca ppls.. today is our Chinese language society Annual Dinner & Dance.. we have chose to organise it in our NTU staff club function room.. that place was realli a nice and great, just tat it was all the way inside NTU..

Realli glad to heard tat all the seniors and graduated ppls enjoy tonite dinner & dance.. although i was shacked and weary but their joys realli give mi a sense of achievment.. our hard work 4 the pass few weeks had paid off.. thank God 4 it.. hehe..

Back to POS

2005-05-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

Back to POS

Finally.. after 3 days of missing in action in Pos, realli felt guilty bout it.. when i back 4 training, everyone was asking mi, "How r u le, Feeling much better?" realli thx lot 4 all of ur concerns, especially those who pray 4 mi.. hereby like to say a big THANK YOU to my tower group; JOEY, SHERMAN & JOHN who had brough mi a billabong shirt.. i like it alot..

i noe tat u guys miss the chance to sabo mi on my B'day.. planning to throw mi into water, paint my face, throw mi up to 3rd level and etc.. Ahhaha.. maybe next time ba but i didn't purposely force myself to fall sick hor.. hehe.. ;)

For the pass 3 days was realli a living torture to mi.. i could only stay at home to recrupate, while my POS mates were having their intense training.. felt so guilty bout it.. especially my tower, they couldn't train their stunt cosz i wasn't around.. :(

On tuesday, my fever still didn't subside and coughing non-stop.. so no choice was stop by mum.. restraining mi from going out to anywhere.. thus i miss the chance of particating in the word power again.. sob sob, ;_;

On wed morning when i woke up.. i felt tat my cough isn't tat bad as compare to monday and tuesday, my fever is gone too.. thinking tat finally can go 4 my training.. never did i expect tat after my bath, my whole body was feeling veri cold.. somemore my strength seem to be draining away and my head is spining.. so i quickly went to my bed to lie down..

the next thing tat i noe is my mum shouting at mi to wake up to take medicine.. it was close to 11am by den.. i was like oh no, late 4 training again but i even have problems getting out of my bed.. i couldn't summon any strength at all, feeling weak and weary.. i don't even noe wat was wrong with mi.. T_T
As a result, i couldn't attend my bible study.. feeling sad and down..

during 3days of resting at home.. i realli felt tat i miss out too much stuff.. especially on my POS training and bible study, which is veri important to mi.. realli hate myself 4 being so weak & incomptent.. always saying "SORRY", "I CAN'T MAKE IT".. if only i was much stronger or wat, i wouldn't be feeling so remorse rite now..

My B'Day

2005-05-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

Mi B'day

Yippe.. today is my b'day.. should be having a great time and enjoying myself but sadly whole day i was at home.. cosz i am sick again.. nowsaday, mani ppls fall sick, hope tat ppls out there do take extra care of urself..

Woke up 3am in the morning, my whole body was burning and feeling veri terrible inside.. so i quickly switch the fan to max but when it blow on mi, i was shivering and sneezeing.. either way was not an alternative for mi.. was feeling veri weak and whole body was aching in pain.. i couldn't get back to sleep so was "walking" around..

Maybe due to the walk, i was feeling hungry so quietly cook porridge for myself to eat.. however it been quiet sometime since i last step into the kitchen, the porridge wasn't very nice.. however, in my mind i could only think of food, FOOD..

Around 6 plus, my mum found out tat i am veri sick and force mi to take down the pendol and command mi to see a doc afterward.. the pendol did help mi subside the fever but cause my sneezeing to became worse.. -___-""

around 10 plus, went down to see the doc.. he ask mi wat was wrong with mi and basically i told him all the syptoms.. den he reply, "u r in serious trouble" i was like huh? i though all this was common flu, wat trouble did i get into this time?? Den he laugh and say "he was just joking with mi".. i was -_-"
i noe tat the doc was trying to cheer mi up but i was realli too sick to laugh..

bascially whole day was at home.. feeling veri tired and weary, should be due to the medicine.. whenever i fall asleep for less than 30 minutes, my mum would shout at mi and wake mi up from my sweet dream.. she say it not good to sleep too much.. i was like HUH?
i though rest is wat i need most mehz, today instead of resting, in the end was watching television..

Was quiet surprise tat my dad get mi a B'day cake.. cosz it has been years since i get a B'day from my family le.. the cake taste veri nice and look beautiful too.. for those who wish to see it can ask from mi.. i save it inside my phone le.. although i noe tat it not veri good for my health cosz it a chocolate fruit cake.. it veri heaty but i simply can't resist the temptation.. hehe.. ;)

although i may be at home the whole day but receive mani ppls sms.. some even call mi to ask how am i feeling.. thx thx.. initally, i though tat only a few remember my B'day but it turn out to be so mani more.. hehe.. thought didn't receive much presents but receive alot of Love and Concern from my friends.. especially from POS mates.. sorry tat couldn't join u all and give u all the chance to sabo mi.. ahhaha..

Progressive Commitment II

2005-05-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

Progressive Commitment II

Went to school in the afternoon to settle my cca stuff.. was late for 15 minutes, adrian so sorry to keep u waiting.. upon arrive, quickly go into the speech for we were suppose to be the emice for our next sat annual dinner and dance.. after settleing all the admin stuff, went to meet up with lynn b4 going to cg together..

i was realli blur lah, actually miss the mrt train tat she was on and she has to take the trouble to come out at the next stop to wait for mi.. den once again i run to the wrong door and finally meet up with her at queenstown.. where next stop is our alighting stop, redhill.. -__-""

upon arriving shannon hus, we had a short prayer meeting b4 the cg.. mani of us is not feeling well and sick especially shannnon, it has been close to a week le.. let all of us realli keep each other in prayer.. cg meeting was great although this is the second time i listening to it.. hehe.. praise the Lord tat shannon skip the part of wat precious to u cosz i realli don't wish to go through the second time.. it realli hurt mi alot.. sob sob ;_;

Progessive Commitment

2005-05-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Progressive Commitment

Woah.. accompany chow tee and de ze to w300 make up cg.. today michelle touch on the topic of progressive commitment.. our whole christian life is a walk with God.. without advancing and moving forward, it as good as we r backsliding and drifting further away from God.. therefore we should make the commitment to seek after Him..

Was realli bless by this week cg sermon.. 5 different level of commitment to God..

1. Letting go of OLD LIFE..
2. Letting go of COMFORT ZONE..
3. Letting go of UNGODLY RELATIONSHIP..
4. Letting go of PAST FAILURES AND MISTAKES..
5. Letting go of WAT MOST PRECIOUS TO U..

coming to the end of michelle's preaching, she give each of us a piece of paper and ask us to write down wat tat most precious to us.. tat simply came to my mind, it mean so much to mi.. den she say, r u willing to let go of ur precious things tat on that piece of paper.. i was like -__-""

It realli hurt mi so much when i decided to give it upon to the LOrd.. my heart was like shatter into pieces and hurt so much.. when michelle pray for mi, my tears just keep on flowing.. it realli hurt whenever i think of it, even till now i am still crying, for it realli mean so much to mi..

I having been praying to God for strength to last mi through this trails.. for i noe very well tat i could never overcome this unless through God's strength.. Lord, may the Holy Spirit continue to guide and lead mi.. if tat ur will den let it be unto mi..